Long-term Impact of 5-MeO-DMT

[Lopsided Nobody]

I am curious what the long-term impact has been on those of you who have done 5-MeO-DMT, either after a single breakthrough session or from developing a relationship with it.

In my case, I am almost six months out from my first journey with the toad and the impact has been very positive. However, it has been a mixture of realizing on one hand we are all essentially from the divine or a part of it, and yet still...maybe not mundane, but still ourselves. It's like in a sense we are God or from some unfathomable thing experiencing itself the us and filling ourselves up with Love...but we also still us. We still have to do the laundry, pay our bills, and it's not like I have superpowers or anything. The mean lady down the street still doesn't like me, even though she only exists for this made up example.

Point being, in some ways everything is different. When I remind myself of what I experienced it is impossible to look at anything or anyone the same way again. And yet in another way, nothing has changed. Obviously my experience is different, but the reality of our consensually agreed upon daily reality is the same even if I, arguably, am not. I feel like I am still working through what that means and am curious how the rest of you have grown from your experiences. I also plan on doing the toad again next year, but want to give myself some time to process and ponder on all of this first. I would love to hear what changes you've noticed from your journeys if anybody is willing to share.

[Rising Spirit]

Thank you for posting such a most provocative thread.  From my own 12 experiences, over a four year period, I'd have to say that a profound change has taken place in my day-to-day perception of existence. While any bonafide entheogenic medicine can reliably shift conscious-awareness and rewire the brain, 5-MeO-DMT stands out in my mind's heart as the pinnacle of such tremendous transformative immersions.  Yet, as with all chemical enlightenments, we return to our dualistic reality and are left pondering the immensity of the journey.  That said, once the veil has been lifted...  there is no turning back.  On my own path, it's been an evolving process of voyaging beyond the beyondest beyond, and then condensing back to ego, settling back down into ordinary life and living.  I refer to this phase, as do most experienced psychonauts, as the integration period.  It requires grounding the taste of the infinite, throughout the seemingly mundane activities of mortal, existential perception. 

I personally liken it to finding buoyancy.  How does one ascend into the ineffible, merge within the limitless oneness, and through re-coalecense of individuality, retain the pure essence of the nondual? Frankly, one one hand you cannot, yet on the other hand, there remains a divine remembrance of having always been interconnected within such a field of absolute Light.  This intuitive recollection can be nurtured through deep meditation and it inspires us to cultivate a steady attitude of holistic fusion, honing the attention to focus clearly upon the eternal now, no mater how mundane the circumstances.  Which is certainly the proverbial, work in  progress.  I fancy the notion of embarking upon the process of touching the insubstanciality of pure being/non-being and finding the way to rediscover the endlessly transforming, vital link with earthly living as it evolves.  Holding unswerving attention upon interplay betwixt the Supreme state and the isolation of the personal self as it seeks contentmrnt and true purpose.  This journey has no short cuts but it does have inspiring episodes, some quite detached and blissful, some agonizing and cathartic...  those which lead to a clearer understanding of the unified field of resonance humming quietly in the epicentrical core of our blooming human revelations.  A-ho and Namaste, my friend.  🌎

[Handshake]

Really well put, Lopsided.

My experience has been similar. Once you see the bigger picture, you know what's there. It becomes an inner knowing, just like you remember a hike that you've been on or a waterfall you've sat by. And yet like you said, nothing "magic" happens aside from this new awareness. You still are you, with your gifts and your drawbacks, your hang ups and the challenges you face. We still have to work on our daily lives. Our relationships, our politics, and even the process of knowing ourselves as we grow and evolve.

I have found that there are times in life where using psychedelics (in this case 5meo) gives us greater insight and awareness. It helps us slow down and remember the nondual perspective, let go of the things we don't need to hold onto anymore, and keep moving towards what's good. It can connect us to our intuition, and show us various paths ahead.

I have found that 5meo has been a powerful tool for all of those things, and it has also taught me a lot about getting out there and really living. And sometimes that's a long integration. But over time, and after really immersing yourself in the drama(s) of life, you may start to find those same truths and same perspectives that you touched during these journeys. That process takes time, patience, and a willingness to keep turning towards what is challenging. We have to be willing to let the water smooth the stone.

Thanks for opening this discussion, I enjoyed getting to reflect on this!