Nirvikalpa Samadhi. NIce to meet you brother. No words. ..............IT......................I still can't believe it. The most profound event of my life so far. Nothing even comes close. I'm so fortunate.........My GOD.......You know also.
I experienced full kundalini ascension. I've been meditating/focusing/trying for that 23 years before it actually happened from the toad medicine. Go figure. One way or another is good enough for me. It was the most profound experience of my life.
Aug. 19, 2018 is the date when I first experienced the toad medicine/5MeO DMT. I have meditated and studied the Vedas seriously for 22 years and always had an intellectual understanding that we are spirit souls living a human experience and there is a god. Now I know. My home is where the toads live in the Sonoran desert of Arizona. I see them every year during the summer monsoon season. This year however, I found out about the medicine/5MeoDMT. I did a lot of research and knew there was something different about this. It was relatively easy to extract. We held a stainless steel plate over them about 10" and squeezed the glands behind their eyes which made the poison squirt up and stick to the plate. You just let that dry, scrape it off with a blade and that's it. Myself and two other friends collected the medicine from around 15 toads over a week's period and had a good amount of the medicine. When my time came to smoke the medicine I started out in a sitting position on the side of the bed and made sure that when I laid down my head would hit the pillow. I researched the dosage and knew that if you're healthy, to do a good amount to break through rather that play around going back and forth. I loaded a hit of 50-60mg and hit the pipe slow and long filling up my lungs. I started seeing white geometric patterns in front of me so I laid back and before my head hit the pillow, I looked up and huge bright white mandala was opening up over my head! The last physical sensation I remember was my hands out to my sides with my fingers hyperextended upwards. It was like falling out of an airplane. I thought to myself, " I'M NOT READY FOR THIS!!!!!" As I was thinking this, a voice CLEARLY said "This is you." After I heard that, I surrendered and dissolved into everything. THEN IT WAS AS IF I WAS A STAR THAT EXPLODED! I expanded outwards infinitely and then contracted into a tiny black dot. I then entered infinite consciousness and was free. Into It. It. I could use my voice to expand infinitely. I would start with a low hum and would gradually go higher to accelerate the speed of the expansion. It was real love. FREE. IT. I was actually making the sounds for over a minute at time with out breathing. INDESCRIBABLE. My two friends were there and were afraid the police were going to he called. They told me my back was arching and my arms were making the motions like when you make angels in the snow as I was screaming! They described it as a yoga statue and a reverse exorcism. Violent yet ecstatic. All of the sudden I'm in a place with the MASTER. PARAMATMA!!! He showed me IT. Everything is here. Sound manipulates the energy in this body to LOVE. LOVE IS IT. IT. WE'RE IN THESE BODIES TO EXPERIENCE LOVE IT..............WILL ALWAYS BE PERFECT AND EXPAND INFINITELY. I am so thankful for IT.