Recent Posts

Pages: 1 2 [3] 4 5 ... 10
21
Introductions/Newbies / Hi from NYC
« Last post by MikeL on March 10, 2022, 09:03:10 AM »
Hi, I'm Mike..a NYC native who came back to psychedelics about 1 1/2 years ago for healing after not doing any psychedelic for at least 20-25 years. Just so happened that my first psychedelic coming back was the Toad. This happened at a time when I was really struggling mentally and I needed a major reset and I sure got that with the Toad. My first time I was given a dose of 85mg and immediately went offline before I even exhaled. Upon coming back I came back crying, laughing and smiling all at the same time and I had no idea why cause I had no memory of what I might have seen or where I was. But I immediately knew something changed in me and I got the reset that I needed. Since then I've done the Toad 10 times with varying doses. The most has been 90mg which was my second time and I went offline again with no memory of the experience besides the floating back for about a half hour upon coming back online. Nowadays I prefer doing smaller doses. Anywhere from 25-45mg is the sweet spot for me cause I've learned that I can really work with the medicine, be in the medicine, learn from it and stay conscious at those doses. I'm happy to join this site and meet fellow people who've done the Toad. I've been told I have a good relationship with the Toad and I think that's true. My last time was in late December 2021 and it was incredibly healing and felt like a giant weight was lifted off my shoulders. It was also very much needed cause the last year was a real rollercoaster for me as I almost died in the hospital in late July and my health was very much up and down for almost a year but things have taken a turn for the better and now I've been feeling great and I can definitely say that the Toad played a big part in me still being alive and happy. The last journey was all about forgiveness. Forgiving people I felt abandoned me..esp my Dad as well as forgiving myself for past actions and mistakes I made. I've found that being able to forgive as well as being grateful for everything in life is the way to move forward and live freely. I'm happy to help anyone in any way that I can so please feel free to hit me up if you'd like. Looking forward to the forums and reading about other people's experiences, learning more and just meeting fellow Toadies. I've also done a fair share of work with psilocybin in the last 1 1/2 years as well as some work with ketamine and MDMA. It feels much longer than just 1 1/2 years but what a crazy year and a half it's been. If you read all of this thank you 🙏💜✨🐸 There's way more but I will leave other stuff for the forums. Sincerely, MikeL

22
Ethics and Ecology / Calling out / Calling in
« Last post by moonbeam on March 04, 2022, 08:25:48 PM »
What is a good way to call out, or call in, an unethical practitioner in an unregulated field?  The intention would be to reduce potential harm to future clients.

There are some cases where speaking to a practitioner 1:1 would not result in any shift in course.  On another end, something like writing a public letter could have personal risks for the complainant, yet possibly the most impact.     

Thoughts? Experiences?
23
Introductions/Newbies / Re: Here from Northeast US
« Last post by Rising Spirit on March 03, 2022, 11:15:27 AM »
Great to hear from you Rising Spirit! We likely have had similar trajectories on these issues: I first learned TM in 1972.

I  believe that it was 1974 when I picked up the Maharishi's book, The Science of Being and Art of Living.  Yes, that summer.  I had been training in Korean martial arts and meditation was a requirement.  My difficulty with Seon Buddhist sitting meditation, had been my underdeveloped capacity to hold singles-pointed attention upon an insubstantial, undifferentiated void.  Go figure.  Quite the ironic quest, eh?  Picture my 15 year old mind churning with adolescent fervour, determined to think about non-thought.  To conceptualize about something beyond concept.  Emptiness was an opposite mirror for me in those days.  I certainly didn't grok it at all nor identify with no-self as my epicentrical core identity.  It was like a mysterious shadow and I sought the light.

Naturally, I was caught up in dualistic notions and grasped for a methodology to occuoy my jumpy focus, I sought a more engaging practice of meditation.  Granted, years later I would delight in the mystery of Zazen but I needed a tangible system and TM was so valuable to me then.  Money mongerers?  Ultimately, it was through my early, ego shattering  experiences with LSD-25, mushrooms and mescaline, that the fruit of deep meditation was fully activated within me and my journey accelerated beyond navigating through layers and layers of contemplative paradigmns, spinning through out the labyrinth of my mind.

My first half dozen or so (technically, absent of any sense of separate self) Samadhi experiences, predated my knowledge of astral projection, breathlessness, mystical rapture, kundalini or even the chakras.  The following decades I meandered from Kriya Yoga, to Surat Shabd Yoga, to Suffism, to Natuve American shamanism, and eventually to Zen & Taoism.  At some point there was no longer any separation between the road and the destination.. All paths lead to the Source centered deep within this eternal moment.  How has your meditation practice evolved over these many decades?  What is the form or lineage of your current path?   

Quote
My practice is a "no-practice" in the sense that "I" attempt only to see ever more clearly that in actual experience there is "not two" (i.e., not a subject and object; not a "me" and everything else). It's a tough game, lol. I have had 3 very distinctive "kensho" experiences in this (one of which was in 1973, after doing TM for about a year). I'd like to see if 5 can help me push the envelope a bit -- even though I know through direct experience that there is no "me" and there's nothing to "push."

I too feel spiritually drawn towards the pathless path, the methodless method...  the way of no-way.  From my perspective, as a relative neophyte with the 5 molecule, nothing can nor ever could prepare the pilgrim for the immense degree of ego-erasure and sudden dissipation of any subject/object dichotomy.  That said, what you are conveying clearly shows quite an aptitude for being able to shift your perception to greater, far subtler fields of consciousness, to have cultivated a silence within and attained a lovely un-attainment within the clarity of a deep, steady focus.   Perfect tools to surrender oneslf into the blinding white brilliance of sheerest oblivion.  5-MeO-DMT is a wholly non dual epiphany had by no one.  Ergo, it is def a paradox and then some!  Or rather, perhaps the epiphany only registers in the post eclipsing phase, upon re-entry into sober mortal duality?  I believe that such is the case in regards to the voyage .   

Quote
I also have some ambivalence regarding experiences from others regarding entheogens. Many have clearly seen what's to be seen over and over again -- yet most I've heard from seem to have ended up being "tourists" rather than "Buddhas." Apparently, just seeing it is not enough. I'm hoping that I've laid a groundwork over fifty years such that "seeing it" will be a broader experience than it has seemed to be for others using enthoegens.... 

Fair enough.  My encounters are limited to an even dozen journeys and while my credo has always been, "less is more" I may embark further, I may not.  As long as I am invited by the sacrament, my heart is honestly still eager for the communion.  Could you share with us which entheogens you have experienced and how they impacted your sadhana?  Namaskar, my dear soul reflection.   _/|\_ _/|\_
24
Introductions/Newbies / Re: Here from Northeast US
« Last post by Friend2All on February 25, 2022, 09:41:45 AM »
Great to hear from you Rising Spirit! We likely have had similar trajectories on these issues: I first learned TM in 1972.


My practice is a "no-practice" in the sense that "I" attempt only to see ever more clearly that in actual experience there is "not two" (i.e., not a subject and object; not a "me" and everything else). It's a tough game, lol. I have had 3 very distinctive "kensho" experiences in this (one of which was in 1973, after doing TM for about a year). I'd like to see if 5 can help me push the envelope a bit -- even though I know through direct experience that there is no "me" and there's nothing to "push."


Among contemporary people discussing these issues I've found several who note initial help from Jean Reno to have substantial things to say: Rupert Spira, Francis Lucille, and Stefan Bodian are some. Like you, I'm very wary and resistant toward "teachers" and formal structures of training. No one can do this for us, and depending on some "all knowing" other person to say exactly what you need to hear exactly when you need it seems..."over wishful." And so I've struggled on. I also once had a knock-your-socks-off experience simply by reading some work by Douglas Harding.


I also have some ambivalence regarding experiences from others regarding entheogens. Many have clearly seen what's to be seen over and over again -- yet most I've heard from seem to have ended up being "tourists" rather than "Buddhas." Apparently, just seeing it is not enough. I'm hoping that I've laid a groundwork over fifty years such that "seeing it" will be a broader experience than it has seemed to be for others using enthoegens...


Finally, there is the issue of safety and purity of product: no small issue. I'd like to learn more about direct synthesis on one's own. Supposedly, there is a new method which produces a succinyl salt which generates a 99+% yield of the salt, with relatively straightforward and easy to acquire precursors. I'm always on the lookout for any information in that vein.


Best wishes to you Rising Spirit!
25
Introductions/Newbies / Re: Here from Northeast US
« Last post by Rising Spirit on February 25, 2022, 07:04:20 AM »
Greetings and salutations, Friend2All.  Welcome to the Hive.  Can you share a little bit more about your meditative practices?  I too, have had a keen interest in sitting and moving meditation.  My path began in 1974 with Seon Buddhist meditation (Korean Zen) but I found TM more practical for my teenage sensibilities.  It isn't the easiest route, embracing the shimmering emptiness of the Void, when post adolescence is stirring one's restless mind.  I found that mantra repetition and pranayama offered some structure and guidance, much needed during my turbulent youth.


When I was introduced to cannabis and later on, LSD-25...  my training in meditation took deeper root.  As I first experienced Kundalini activation, way back in 1978, I was drawn to Kriya Yoga, as taught by Swami Paramahamsa Yogananda.  Autobiography of A Yogi opened new doors for me and answered a great many questions that had been developing within my neophytic mind.  I joined the Self Realization Fellowship and took the lessons.  I personally find religious organizations rather stiffling and so, as the years turned into decades, I moved from one lineage to another.  None of them, however, offered the direct experience that psychedelics did.  That said, training the breathe and learning to access higher fields of cognition are invaluable for the intrepid psychonaut. So in my own case, the two paths are most symbiotic.  Please share something about your meditation practices and how entheogens have influenced your understanding and your spiritual growth.  Namaskar.  _/|\_ _/|\_
26
Introductions/Newbies / Re: Hello from New England!
« Last post by Rising Spirit on February 25, 2022, 05:49:57 AM »
Welcome aboard, Soulina.  I too reside in New England.  Vermont in specific.  And you def hit the nail on the head, a great deal of the impact from the medicine occurs during one's post interphase experiences.  Integration is key!  How do we cope with losing our egoic structure, encountering Infinity and tasting the terrifying ecstacy of nonduality...  and then learn to maintain some sense of buoyancy within the dualistic nature of mortal life?  From my perspective, there is a steep learning curve, initially, but there are many ways to find balance and retain the essence of the teachings imparted by the sacred molecule.  Imbibing 5 rekindled a zeal within myself for yoga and deep meditation.  Naturally, it also brought greater affinity with just being outdoors, hiking in the woods or ascending mountain trails. How have you found your way since you were anointed?  Have you been inspired to re-evaluate your own beliefs about God, the Source and this immense universe?  I imagine some folks find themselves even more convicted towards atheism?  Have you taken up any spiritual practices, either a traditional religious path or one that is New Age?  Thanks for joining  the community and do please share your experiences with 5-MeO-DMT in the appropriate sub forum.  Namaskar   _/|\_ _/|\_         
27
Introductions/Newbies / Hello from New England!
« Last post by Soulina on February 24, 2022, 03:38:30 PM »
Nice to see a commumity here! <3
Just looking for others who are integrating well. I'm curious to explore how folx are incorporating thier insights.  Thanks!
-Soulina
28
Science / Re: 5-MeO-DMT : HCL to FB Conversion Method For Optimization of Yield
« Last post by lucha54 on February 23, 2022, 09:41:34 PM »
Is there a simple way to convert FB to HCL? (for easier insufflation). I've heard of the "just add vinegar" process but then you get a liquid. How does it get back to dry form for insufflation? Am I missing something?
29
General Discussion / storage and conversion
« Last post by Friend2All on February 20, 2022, 10:11:05 PM »
Hi all ! My first post. I acquired some synthetic about 2+ years ago, and stored it (in plastic) in a freezer since then. At first it was off-white in color. Now there's a definite brown cast to it. It was identified to me as freebase.


Has it gone bad? What would happened if it were vaped as is? Is there any way to "refresh" it? Could I convert it to salt and refresh it that way? I want to be able to use this. Ultimately, I think it might be best to convert to salt and take sublingually (is that preferred?), rather than vape. If it were to be vaped, what is a proper vaping temperature (using a temperature set volcano vaporizer)?


It seems to me that salt/sublingual would allow for easiest dosage experimentation and adjustment. Any opinions on that?


Thanks. Best wishes to all.
30
Introductions/Newbies / Here from Northeast US
« Last post by Friend2All on February 20, 2022, 09:55:28 PM »
I have a 20 year off-and-on interest in entheogens -- along with a VERY keen, 50 year practice of various meditation endeavors. I have no experience yet with 5, although I possess some synthetic. My immediate interest is freebase/salt conversions and storage issues. I look forward to being a constructive contributor and member.
Pages: 1 2 [3] 4 5 ... 10