Hello Me..!and me and me and me. Thou art THAT!

[JaguarWoman]

Hello. I'm Camara. In this story I am a 39 year old mom and business owner in BC Canada.

I healed my C-PTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder) with psychedelic therapy including Ayahuasca, MDMA and 5meo-dmt.  Following that I went into training and became a certified psychedelic & psychospiritual integration coach.  I've shifted my life to focus on helping others with their awakening and I'm now enjoying playing in reality.


I really love Alan Watts.


Here's a little bit more about me as I'm not squemish about sharing my story anymore.


I’ve experienced horrible things in my life:[/size]- Childhood emotional neglect- Sexual abuse & rape as an adolescent- Living in foster care and on the street- Child pornography and prostitution- Being held against my will and forced to do awful things.- Juvenile detention (jail)
- My mother dying from her addiction
- Wilderness boot camp in winter
- Living in a cult reform school called CEDU for two years.
- Institutional psychological abuse
- losing my daughter to a terminal illness.

I tried so hard to get better. To be “normal” to be successful and follow my heart but I was still deeply wounded.

I became so "mentally ill" from all of that. (Yes you can be mentally ill and still get straight A’s and graduate college).

I even attempted suicide. I tried just about about everything for my C-PTSD / developmental trauma/ anxiety / depression. Anti-depressants, anti anxiety medicine, counselling, psychologists, psychiatrists, CBT, the eye thing, tapping, natural remedies.

And I still couldn’t shake it. I dreaded waking up in the morning and I sought solutions outside of myself.

Until I did an Ayahuasca retreat with a physician and a team of therapists.

I got more out of that retreat than 22 years of talk therapy.

I followed that up with participation in an MDMA assisted psychotherapy and 5meodmt session two months later and since then i have been 100% free of depression, anxiety, symptoms of PTSD and insomnia.

That was more than a year ago.

My life has turned 180 degrees and I feel more self aware, more self-love, more peace, more joy, more connected than ever before in my entire life. I was finally able to let go of the guilt, shame and fear that was causing my self-hatred and disconnection from my true self.

I am forever grateful for the pioneering medical professionals who are researching and practicing psychedelic therapy.

[/color][/size]My true self is the Brahman.

[HumbleVoyager]

Thank you for sharing such an inspiring story. It’s great to have you with us on the 5 Hive.

[JaguarWoman]

You're welcome 

[n4om1]

Hello, thanks for sharing. Identity is a pretty strange thing huh, we find ourselves living in these bodies, seeing out into reality through individual points of awareness, remembering a story associated with it, the history of how we got to where we are and we can get so tied up in the story it strangles us and chokes us. I can only imagine how the medicines have enabled you to loosen some of those binds you've lived in for so long. It was actually part of the title that draw me in to this particular thread though - it's a Hindu saying and it reminds me of a book on teachings from Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj called 'I Am That'. Are you familiar with it? If anyone at all reading this thread is familiar with this book or the concepts involved has anything to say I'd love to hear your perspective. Thank you