Thank you for the kind reply's. They mean the world to me. I don't really have anyone up until now that I can relate to on this level. I started reading Carlos Castaneda books when I was 14 years old decades ago. That was my first guru. In the mid 90s I became involved with Bhakti yoga and Krishna consciousness which I have followed seriously for over 20 years now. That totally turned my consciousness around then. The toad medicine experience corroborated everything I have learned up until this point. I do not consider it a drug. The medicine dissolves your ego and you can see through the veil of illusion. I have tried LSD, Psilocybin, mescaline and other psychedelics decades ago but nothing compares even remotely to the toad medicine. My hobby/obsession is nature photography. I have been photographing these toads for over a decade now and enjoy seeing them every summer. My life will never be the same in a much better way. I hope to meet some of you in this community. THANK YOU!!!!!!