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Introductions/Newbies / Re: Intro

« on: October 25, 2019, 09:27:47 AM »

Hi Nathan.


You might want to check out this community,  [size=78%]https://www.meetup.com/connectwithSEAS/[/size]  at Charleston. Be safe.

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Toad Experiences and Testimonials / Re: My experience with Bufo — I’d welcome your thoughts

« on: August 12, 2019, 12:00:41 PM »

No two experiences are the same on 5-meo-DMT. i´ve had 6 i think, and all of them were diferent. It always help me to think that it´s the experience i need not the one i want.


But the common factor is that it always get me in contact with my emotions in depth that i didn´t knew were possible.


dosage amount may vary. usually that blissful and joyful feelings come in the lower end of mid strength experiences. after that i think its more of a balance or unity type of feeling, and balance has both good & bad in it.  Maybe to get there you needed to bleed out of that pain.


heavy doses are hard to process without the proper experience/guidance. And we have no idea what was the real dose.


whatever the experience, i´d recommend a second try whenever you are ready.  then you will have more perspective and maybe that pain has waned and lets you bring more joy.  Does the facilitator has a good track record? an plenty of experience?


after two months i decided to try out bufo again. it left me completely exhausted all my body aches, and my eyes want to close.  But i´m full of peace. I tought i wanted that jolt of happiness that i got after my first try, or the clear headedness of my second try. 


 

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: Still processing my first 5MeO experience

« on: June 13, 2019, 11:07:34 AM »

This spiritual experiences tend to help a lot in peeling of layers and telling us what is essential for us.  i  picked up a few books to understand it, i´be been wrestiling for a few weeks with the tibetan book of the dead. and while i get confused with the structure of deities and the progressions suggested, it has helped me keep alive some of the processes understanding the importance of this dettachment.




I´ve don bufo 5 times, only once i had a whiteout, that time i felt this amazing energy for a few days. in my head i knew that it was the liberation of kundalini that some close family members that follow the siddha yoga path had talked about to me..  it´s the only way i could describe it to myself..   Then as you mention thought patterns (the ego) build up and we get involved in daily issues etc.. So at the end if one does not make changes, we will find the same issues.


The best analogy that i´ve heard, is skiing on a mountain with a fresh coat of snowpowder where you are free of  the threads created by use that almost force us to follow those paths. 

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: Still processing my first 5MeO experience

« on: June 13, 2019, 09:50:53 AM »

Regards JJ. Thanks for sharing.


It´s an unbelievable experience and rewarding at so many levels,  enjoy your new eyes and work to keep them alive.




Can you tell us a little more. Was it bufo or synthetic?  i do think the witheout is the most spiritually rewarding of the 5meo experiences, i haven´t seen a detailed guide that encompasses the experiences at different thresholds, maybe because the tolerance between individuals make it hard, but sure there are a few cristal clear experiences shared by most of us.

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: 5-Meo-DMT - Integration & Moving Forward

« on: June 10, 2019, 04:33:51 PM »

Thanks! i will post it over there, after reviewing spelling.

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Poetry and Art / Re: Frogs on a plate

« on: June 10, 2019, 04:27:35 PM »

My head starts to buzz, just from seeing the image.


Great project! i´ll see if i can buy one as a gift.

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: 5-Meo-DMT - Integration & Moving Forward

« on: June 05, 2019, 04:36:20 PM »

Thanks Curador!


So true what you say about attraction rather than promotion.. i´ve see that the first time you try 5-meo-dmt, you want to go door to door and speak about the medicine... i don´t think helps at all..  My friend the shaman spoke about this topic, on how his changes have attracted the trust of people close to him, much because they don´t want to be left behind.


i spoke with my wife after the 3rd time i did it, because i couldn´t hide something that has became so important for me...   probably she knew something was up already after seeing that i was reading tich nhat hanh and my youtube whatch history.


A few days ago i watched the teaser of the movie bufoalvarius the underground secret just the intro, was enough to let me know the similarities in experiences i almost had a reactivation while watching it. Aslo reading your experience i can see them there.


thanks for your advice.. i thik i´ll do it once every two months, and the bufo dosages i´ve using i think equate to 20-30% 5 meo.  so i´ve been hitting between 8 and 15 mg.


Regards!.

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Preparation and Integration / Re: Since my 5 experience, I don't want any substances - like alcohol, sugar, coffee

« on: June 05, 2019, 12:42:49 PM »

Yes, it´s funny how cravings stop.


I still like to have a drink or two, but not get drunk.  I can´t withstand the smell of tobacco and basically can´t remember the feeling of doing a line.


being more emotional is a little bit hard.

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: 5-Meo-DMT - Integration & Moving Forward

« on: June 05, 2019, 09:26:45 AM »

Thanks Curador.


My friend who has embraced his role as Shaman, and who had been insisting for me to try the Toad. Has this place really close to Puerto Vallarta, where they do ritual type ceremonies as the ones you have seen the videos.  Usually those ceremonies start with a sweat lodge therapy "temazcal" then snuff "rape" to ground the energy of the people while each one waits for their turn. Then everything is followed by an integration session. 


My friend knew that i would have told him that i had no time for all of that. So i preferred to go and do it with him alone. This is a quick summary.


1st. Saturday morning 8:00 am - about 15 mg - natural form bufo, smoked - with amazing music by craig pruess as background, on a cool beautiful morning.   almost on the verge of breaking through. felt that i was on the gates of an hindu goddess realm, but  my conciousness was present trying to hold on. i don´t know if ive let go at any moment. .  exhilarating experience. amazing positive energy that acompanied me for a few days,  i had en empty stomach and had drinked three glases of wine the day before, so i had some mild nausea during the 25 minutes after effects...


2nd. Another Saturday Morning- 45 days aprox from the 1st.  8:00 am. The Shaman was joined by someone else grandpa like person.  again smoked. but probably around 30 mg. i hard to tell.  I just remember everything dissolving and turning into fractals as i pulled from the glass pipe.  they tell me my body contorted as breakdancing for 20 minutes and then i woke up, with the flow of energy opening my column, thorax, throat, etc..  reborn, no music accompanied me, just the chill vibes from that grandpa an the shaman. the energy was stupid, felt like i had 10 people riffing guitars on my head, and i opened up with everybody about the toad.   this time i had some green juice in me and felt perfectly, just really emotional.


3rd.  Again, 1 month apart, same setting as before, around 45 mg.  amazing psychedelic journey that i felt it was the rapture. my body shouted "wakeee up!" and cried for the earth for some minutes.. For me this is the experience that defines the toad, the journey was amazing.. 


4th.  i convinced a friend. now there were more people at the place.  at least 4 more than were preparing for a whole ceremony that would happen 1 hour later.  we had a mini ceremony as i had a friend with me, led by the shaman´s wife or SO. my mood was not great as i did not want snuff but was told that it was part of the rite this time to ground or head, etc...  don´t like it.   so when it was my turn, i think the dosage was around 30 mg. it seemed more, but it was really thin.  i felt a lot of angst in the experience..  people were singing chants, etc. drums, giving a lot of color to the experience.  needed to wake up and ask for quietness and hugged somenone to drop my angst and did it a second time.  where i was trying myself to reroute the energy from angst to something more male and primal, ended up with a lot of dirt in my hands as if i was clawing up the grass and biting. still amazining


5th.  Month and a week later. a friday morning at 7:00 am. Just me and the shaman.  Beautiful morning with morning dew. it had rained the nght before, so i was worried about getting muddy, and had my head on the weirdness of a DMT experience that i just had tried without breaking through and without learning anything just with a sore throat.
i dont know if it was 30 or how much more. didnt care for that.   just needed to ask some questions to myself.  and get back on track after having a few hard weeks in work, with a lot of commitments, travel, etc. that were grinding my desire for a healthier life.  Really similar to my third experience.


I´d like my close friends and my wife to try it.  but they see it too hardcore, even if they recognize an effort on my side to be better.  I don´t insist on anyone, only on a few friends who i know are living on a loop..  and to my wife i´m grateful on her understanding.


For me its hard to measure the importance of the shaman on the experience.. for me it has worked really well.  i´m thankful that he invited and he has a few sound toold that help you in the process as the experience is easily painted on by external stimuli.  So it´s good to be in good hands.
 


 

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Introductions/Newbies / 5-Meo-DMT - Integration & Moving Forward

« on: June 04, 2019, 09:26:38 AM »

Hi Everyone!


Really grateful to be here. i´ve had 5 Bufo Experiences on the past 6 months while living in Puerto Vallarta. During this process  i´ve quit smoking, considerably lowered my alcohol intake, positively erased even the memory of doing other stimulants, and i´m always trying to be a better person, with a healthy outlok on life, work, relationships.


Originally i committed to doing it 4 times, thanks to the help and persuasion of a close friend who i can say now he is a "Shaman" as that is the role that he has assigned himself.


I´m here to learn on others experiences, their ways of integrating them and moving forward doing other practices towards personal growth. i´ll gladly share my own experiences and pov´s.


Thanks to everyone!