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General Discussion / Re: 5-meo and interconnectivity
« on: July 02, 2021, 09:09:27 AM »
Thank you for this post....
I am gobsmacked by your words  _/|\_

Preparation and Integration / General Integration Tips please?
« on: July 01, 2021, 06:11:21 AM »
Hello :)
I am new to this forum, and cannot seem to locate the "T.O.A.D." document that is referenced? Would greatly appreciate if someone could explain where to find that.
In the meantime, I am really hoping for your best integration tips, as I am feeling pretty alone in that right now.
Am currently 2 weeks post retreat, where I experienced 4 full Bufo ceremonies, 2 microdoses, 3 Kambo sessions and 1 Samadhi ceremony, plus night after night of reactivations for about a week and a half.
Was lucky enough to have a week near the ocean before returning home, where I am also in the midst of starting my next chapter. Just resigned from 16 years of teaching to follow my soul purpose and open a business.
So I think the circumstances are contributing, as well as some over-thinking, but yeah....
the things I have felt and experienced...
well, I am just feeling all sorts of things.
Confusion, unsettled, well as trust, love, light, knowing....
it's pretty up and down...
which is why I know I need more integration focus...
I have been meditating daily, grounding breathwork, listening to my body...
I go back and forth between wanting to 'relive' the experience via reading my journal, listening to the music, etc. and not.
Any thoughts or general advice would be most welcome  _/|\_

General Discussion / Re: 5-meo and interconnectivity
« on: July 01, 2021, 05:48:32 AM »
Only speaking from my personal experience here...but yes, absolutely I think it has the potential to rapidly bring that interconnectedness to the forefront.
I remember a deeper psilocybin journey I had once, where I wrapped a quilt around myself that my great-great-grandmother had made. Instantly, I was bombarded with thoughts and images dropping in from the collective. It was rather overwhelming for me, but my first clearly defined experience of interconnectedness.

For me, repeatedly (but mostly during the reactivations), I experienced something similar but much more intensely. I felt like I went hopping around the matrix, connecting to people/places/events that transcended all structures of time and space. Also, during the ceremonies themselves, an indescribable sense/feeling/knowing of the oneness/connectedness of all things, but particularly nature. 

Also, interestingly, the other people present during my experience (5 days), it's like our fields became intertwined. A lot of energy exchanges, both intentional (supportive), and circumstantial (walking by me for example), started happening after about 2 days. It was this beautiful sense of "healing together".

I agree with what HumbleVoyager said though - process and framing...I am feeling rather alone in my integration, and although I am 'ok', I really struggled the first few days with feeling SO OPEN, like, TOO connected...and now, a couple of weeks later, just trying to let it all sink in and move forward without over-thinking everything I now know/feel/have experienced.

Poetry and Art / My last ceremony
« on: June 30, 2021, 02:52:53 PM »
I drew pictures after each of my 4 ceremonies. This was after the last one 🙏

Introductions/Newbies / Greetings 🙏
« on: June 30, 2021, 02:46:27 PM »
Hello everyone :)
Earlier today I was searching for integration information to help me. I found a podcast which I listened to, that introduced me to this forum.
I am 2 weeks out of a retreat experience where I had Bufo 4x full strength, 2 microdoses, 3 kambo treatments and 1 very challenging Samadhi ceremony, all over the course of 5 days. The whole time and for several days after I basically didn't sleep, but tried to let my body rest as I went through what seemed like endless reactivations.
Overall, this was by far the most profound thing I have ever experienced of course (previous experiences with LSD, psilocybin and ayahuasca), and a TREMENDOUS amount of clearing and healing took place. I am home and having some pretty strong emotional swings, feelings of confusion as I try to provess everything and think of how I will apply it moving forward.
The integration aspects of the center I attended are lacking, which is way I am here.
Hoping to find more info, share, connect, understand more about WTF just happened and move on in a most positive way.
Thank you for listening 🧡

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