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yes thank you for your advise ... this is what I'm going to do .. start with lower doses

yes you are absolutely right , I just checked my milligram scale, it shows 0.000 so it was definitely 0.020 mg not 0.0020 mg, I wrote the measurement from memory, I want to do it again, I have it waiting but I experiencing some sort of anxiety ... I have to figure out how to overcome this.   

I definitely measured out .0020mg (about the size of very small pinch of salt) of synthetic...
yes, I'm definitely going to do it again, I just think my body and ego need to adapt to the shock,
what I'm reading often are reports of others of and their parallel reality experiences, I would like to know this.
I am planning on doing it again and will report my next experience

yes it was synthetic, I'm going to continue, I added .0020mg but probably only did a little over 1/2, read other reports where there is a feeling of oneness, I think still need to go through ego death ... it's not giving up without a fight 

Hello I would like to talk about my experience with 5-MeO-DMT, 1st I want to apologize for not being poetic or philosophical
I decided to begin a long term journey with this molecule but my 1st experience was unprepared and almost on a whim,
this would be far from the 1st time I taken psychedelics ...so I have a scale and weighed out .0020mg using the pyrex pipe I received a few days before, I sat down on the couch chuckled to myself and said ok let's go, I took a big hit and instantly saw grey compact tetris style fractals, then I felt as if every neuron
was activated at the same time I felt a panic and vaguely heard moaning ... the next minutes could be described
as what it must feel like to die though some sort of horrific exhilaration... when I started to come back I felt nausea and found myself crawling on all fours, everything was like a stop action movie, finally I was ok, also my legs and lower abdomen were spasming as in waves as if I had gone into hypothermia and continued for about 45 min, long after the effects had subsided ...

.. so it's been 2 days now and I feel weird, I feel as if my heart has took a stress, I never had a panic attack but almost felt l need to go to the emergency room this morning, I didn't know if I was on the verge of a heart attack or panic attack, my heart rate was normal about 58/60, yesterday I almost felt I was going to start crying, you see I am separated from my wife and haven't seen my 2 daughters for some years now, I think I might be experiencing what some would call heartbreak...  anyway all that aside I ordered some supplements to fortify the heart, stopped by the side of the road and picked some hawthorn berries and ate those, I read they fortify the heart and are high in phenolic acids good for the heart and in the olden time were taken for heartbreak ... so next time I will prepare and hope the experience will be less harrowing... even though this sounds harrowing I consider it a positive in the feeling something has started to change and something deep inside is trying to come to terms with it.

hello everyone I joined this forum to share my experience and to have others input