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General Discussion / Forum Dead?

« on: December 09, 2018, 11:09:51 AM »

Did this forum officially die?

I can't see any replies to any of the posts I've put recently and likewise for other well meant questions and reports I've seen here. The last post as of today was well over two weeks ago. In the meantime DMT Nexus is hosting discussions about 5-meo!!

Hi Administrators, do I cancel my membership?

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Ethics and Ecology / Dr Gerry - accusations

« on: November 25, 2018, 07:50:45 AM »

I'm not posting this to judge anyone but I think it would be very wise for anyone considering using the services of Dr Gerry (Dr Gerardo Sandoval) to be acquainted with the multiple allegations against this person. At the very least he is responsible for letting down large numbers of people who paid for a session with him. However the allegations go much further to him pocketing money that was to be paid to the nebulous Bufo Foundation, to organisers and to customers who never got to see him. One allegation of rape is particularly disturbing but this is a charge for which he should personally answer. I suggest anyone requiring more information on this subject should go to "Beware the Bufo Gangsters" on Facebook where people are able to air their particular grievances against him.

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5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / Infinity then difficult return then beauty

« on: October 27, 2018, 05:33:45 PM »

I had decided that I would like to take a release dose of 5-meo this afternoon. As my preferred ROA is plugging, I had prepared 10mg of the hydrochloride in 1ml of water in a syringe. From experience, the plugged dose is considerably stronger than the vaped dose so maybe equivalent to 16-20mg of the freebase smoked.

Unfortunately the neighbors had chosen this afternoon for a big party with lots of music. I also have a small guesthouse next door so I was aware that noise could be a problem for guests. At 4pm, as the music wasn't too loud, I decided to go ahead with the experience. I administered the milliliter of solution and started feeling the initial effects after a couple of minutes, a bit earlier than I would normally have expected which forewarned me it was going to be strong. I lay on the bed and over the next three minutes felt it envelope everything that ever existed. I felt odd moments of resistance, then submission, then resistance, then submission, then total death into the eternal, no words to describe, not even consciousness or love or being, beyond all and everything, infinity.

At some point, although time didn't really come into this, a glimmer of recognition of something began to appear, something that wasn't this infinity. It felt uncomfortable and the recognition progressed to the fact that there was a body of light in the center of this all, then the body took on sensation and the impact of the surroundings started to take on form. I opened my eyes and saw the fan turning on the ceiling and my ears atuned to music from the neighbor's party. It was now at double the volume and I was suddenly filled with concern for the effect this would be having on my guests. There was no way I could move or do anything about it. I watched the minutes go by feeling pretty uncomfortable and out of it. When I felt capable I went to the bathroom and took a quick shower and drank a few sips of water. I knew it would be a while before I could talk to anyone.

But this is where the true gift of the experience occurred. I saw that all the strife that I was feeling was because of my fear of what could happen. Then as I focussed on this the words formed "there is no one here to be harmed". I repeated them time and again "there is no one here", "there is no one here to be harmed". An astounding weight lifted from me. This wasn't just the problem of the loud music, it was everything in life. A life spent trying to protect something that in fact never existed. A sort of a joke. In fact it opened the floodgates to what I can only call vulnerability, a beautiful vulnerability to everything that was previously a threat but was now just the aliveness of the moment.

I still need to process all this but I really wanted to write something down now and share.
 

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: New member with question here :?

« on: October 18, 2018, 12:21:40 PM »

That's a pretty ambiguous description and not an obvious format to sell it in. If it's liquid, one would have to assume water solution in which case it's the hydrochloride rather than the freebase product. I've no idea what the solubility is; I can easily dissolve 10mg of HCl in 1ml of water which I use for plugging. I think you need to ask the vendor what it is he's selling exactly - you don't want to make any mistakes with dosages and you might need a bit of basic chemistry to get it into the state you need to use!

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: Introductory Post

« on: July 12, 2018, 11:33:37 AM »

  Hello,


I’ve had one experience with 5-MeO, and it was the most challenging experience of my life (despite a lot of experiences with other psychedelics and spiritual practices). The thought of doing it again terrifies me, but after reading some of Martin Ball’s books, speaking to practitioners, and attending the Exploring Psychedelics conference, I’m considering undergoing another session. I’m seeking the advice of those with more experience than I have, and to connect with others on this journey.

If it's any consolation, my first experience with 5-meo was the most challenging and subsequent experiences have been usually close on ecstatic. I would also say that it's far better to receive a dose that will take you all the way in a few seconds as it's the alternation between the Absolute and the Ego as you enter that causes the discomfort.

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Preparation and Integration / Re: INTEGRATION GUIDELINES from The Conclave

« on: May 28, 2018, 03:41:45 PM »

Wow, I didn't realize there were such occult organizations working out there behind the scenes!

My first response to the attached document:

 - it's is abbreviation of it is or it has
 - its means belonging to it

So:
  T.O.A.D. has given direct permission and consent for its publication
rather than:
  T.O.A.D. has given direct permission and consent for it’s publication

Hope that helps
 

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General Discussion / Re: Whiteout Experiences From 5-MeO-DMT testimonials, please.

« on: May 23, 2018, 04:04:12 PM »

That's interesting because I would not have described any of my experiences with 5 as having a brilliant/blinding white light although, agreed the overriding color of the experience is white. In fact I've found even by taking a very small dose of 5, everything immediately puts itself into black and white devoid of almost any other color. Is this just something physiological?

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General Discussion / Re: What are the top 3 most efficient smoking methods for TOAD

« on: April 25, 2018, 11:41:51 AM »

Hey Humble Voyager. Is this what you use for vaping 5? Any chance of giving us a quick explanation of how it works. Would it work for dmt also? Many thanks, MM

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Preparation and Integration / Re: Sex before 5-meo. Bad?Good?

« on: April 21, 2018, 10:03:45 AM »

I'm sure there a lots of new age shamans spouting all kinds of nonsense about how you should take 5-meo but I am at a loss how it could possible affect the experience.

I've just joined here but have taken 5-meo about 10 or 15 times. In my own experience the most useful environment to take 5-meo is within a meditative setting, ideally meditation before and after. My own particular method is to do meditation each day and if the circumstances are right after an hour or so, take the already prepared pipe and smoke. Obviously this means that you are probably doing it on your own and not at a given hour - unless you've got a very patient sitter 

In fact these days I can't possibly imagine doing it outside of a meditative setting and to see "shamans" imposing their own particular methodology (eg shaking a rattle and pouring water down an unconcious person's throat!) or their version of indigenous/new age philosophy distinctly disturbs me. Sorry to be contentious in one of my first posts and we haven't even got on to the subject of utilizing endangered species to obtain the product when there are perfectly acceptable laboratory alternatives!

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: Greetings from Magic Mexico

« on: April 17, 2018, 04:49:47 PM »

Really interesting looking website, Joe! I'll have to take the time to explore it and listen to a couple of the podcasts. I don't think anything I could say would make good interview material - my attempts to talk to friends about it usually result in worried looks 

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Introductions/Newbies / Greetings from Magic Mexico

« on: April 13, 2018, 05:33:11 PM »

Hi Forum
Very pleased you are here 
I've been (well was!) on a spiritual search for 40 odd years with many different practices as well as using entheogens.
In the last 5 years I've had DMT maybe 100+ times and 5-MeO a dozen. It's completely changed my outlook. Also coming across non dual teachers such as Tony Parsons got rid of all the excess baggage I thought was necessary ... in fact it probably got rid of all baggage and the baggage handler too 
I could spout on about spirituality or entheogens at length but it might be boring for everyone. I can bore myself even if I get started.
Just to say entheogens have shown me incredible things. Complete ego loss 30 seconds away is a hard act to follow. My pipe sits here.
I would definitely add to the list above MDMA, San Pedro and Mushrooms, each with their own nuance and "usefulness".
Happy to be in contact with anyone in Mexico - please PM me in Spanish or English!
Love to you all
MM