Thank you for sharing this so openly. I really appreciate how you're holding both the awe and the humility of the experience. The way you describe the dissolution and then the clarity before reconnecting with your body captures something many people struggle to put into words.
One thing I'd gently offer is that there isn't really a universal timeline for how long "effects last." Some people feel meaningful shifts for years after one session. Others find that the acute memory fades but the deeper reorganization continues in subtle ways. Framing it as "most people need a reminder after a year" can sometimes unintentionally plant an expectation that something is supposed to wear off. In my experience, what endures most reliably is what gets integrated, not what gets repeated.
A lot of people describe that first encounter as climbing the mountain. Subsequent sessions, when they happen, often feel less like going higher and more like seeing the same landscape from a different angle. Sometimes that brings new insight. Sometimes it simply confirms what was already known. And sometimes it becomes clear that the real work is happening in ordinary life, not in returning to the peak.
I really resonate with your question of "What now?" That's often the most important phase. If there's no sense of need, that's actually a very grounded place to be. The impulse to repeat can come from devotion, curiosity, avoidance, habit, or genuine calling. It can take some honest self-inquiry to discern which is operating.
Some people who revisit do so with very specific intentions around patterns they've noticed resurfacing. Others find that repetition doesn't add much and instead deepen their practice through therapy, community, service, or contemplative work. There isn't a right answer.
If you never do it again and feel complete, that's valid. If you return in a year and it feels aligned and intentional, that's valid too. The more interesting question, in my view, is how the experience is shaping how you relate to others, to your nervous system, to your values, and to your daily life.
Curious what shifts, if any, you've noticed in how you move through the world.
One thing I'd gently offer is that there isn't really a universal timeline for how long "effects last." Some people feel meaningful shifts for years after one session. Others find that the acute memory fades but the deeper reorganization continues in subtle ways. Framing it as "most people need a reminder after a year" can sometimes unintentionally plant an expectation that something is supposed to wear off. In my experience, what endures most reliably is what gets integrated, not what gets repeated.
A lot of people describe that first encounter as climbing the mountain. Subsequent sessions, when they happen, often feel less like going higher and more like seeing the same landscape from a different angle. Sometimes that brings new insight. Sometimes it simply confirms what was already known. And sometimes it becomes clear that the real work is happening in ordinary life, not in returning to the peak.
I really resonate with your question of "What now?" That's often the most important phase. If there's no sense of need, that's actually a very grounded place to be. The impulse to repeat can come from devotion, curiosity, avoidance, habit, or genuine calling. It can take some honest self-inquiry to discern which is operating.
Some people who revisit do so with very specific intentions around patterns they've noticed resurfacing. Others find that repetition doesn't add much and instead deepen their practice through therapy, community, service, or contemplative work. There isn't a right answer.
If you never do it again and feel complete, that's valid. If you return in a year and it feels aligned and intentional, that's valid too. The more interesting question, in my view, is how the experience is shaping how you relate to others, to your nervous system, to your values, and to your daily life.
Curious what shifts, if any, you've noticed in how you move through the world.
