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Hi. I'm glad to be here. I'm interested in learning about this molecule, and maybe I'll even try it some day. I'm not sure. Sounds kind of frightening, and impossible for someone like me to obtain. If it happens, it happens.
  I have quite a bit of experience with psychedelics. From youthful dabbling and abuse, to actually working with them for exploration and healing after a nearly 20 year break.
During my break from psychedelic use I  experienced heroin addiction, severe depression and anxiety, a successful business, a decade of sobriety, marriage and fathering a child, leaving art behind. suicidality. Depression, re-addiction to opiates after an injury. Perhaps, unwisely, re-connecting with my adoptive, abusive parents.


After returning to psychedelics I've experienced: Raising a human child, fairly well, with a partner, in a psychedelic way IMO. More addiction related to injury (including TBI), but more controlled and far less destructive. Decrease in addiction. Remission of addiction. Return to addiction, remission again. It seems to be resolving, finally after half a century on the planet. I started off addicted, in the womb.
Then: More suicidal depression, poisoned and amplified by brain injury. I really came close this time. I had ceased using psychedelics. The main ones being DMT/harmala and Psilocybin. The occasional use of these two was keeping my depression and anxiety in check. Quarterly use seemed to be enough. Then I got busy and was hit with some big life stuff. Financial, death of my abusive mother without the ability to grieve.
 
  Finally, just as I was sourcing parts for a suicide machine, ketamine came into my life, and I did a 180. Currently, occasional boosters with DMT after the peak has me in the best shape I've been in, in decades. The longer I use ketamine, the less frequently I use it. I was initially worried about addiction, and I will continue to watch. I did have a brief (1 week) period in the beginning when I was doing it once a day, but that quickly stopped. Max dose 125mg IM.  ~100mg IM followed by 7-15mg of DMT from a GVG is pure, healing magic.


That's my story.


I'm also interested in music. I listen to and create music. Currently working on long ambient / sound sculptures for sleep, meditation and tripping. Also returning to structured pop, prog, electronic music, after being reborn via ketamine/dmt. I build electronics, mostly guitar pedals and, big obsession these days, modular synthesizers. I also play yoyo. Getting pretty okay on unresponsive.
I work with animals for my day job. I'm in the DC metropolitan area and need to start going to psychedelic conferences. I will start doing that if I stay on this track. I think psychedelics are the most important area for human growth going on the planet right now. Period. Maybe that is how 5-meo will find me, if it does. Otherwise, I won't be running across no toads. They don't live in the wild in my area, and none of my clients have them as pets, thankfully :)
Hope I can be a positive, productive and helpful member of this community.
Thanks for having me.