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Offline spoutnikp

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Hi there ::: presentation
« on: February 10, 2018, 12:17:29 PM »
Hi everyone,
It is suggested that I present myself  O0

When I was younger, I did a lot of meditation and Qi Gong, but was never disciplined enough to go on for very long periods. Anything else seemed more important. I was reading on spirituality, tried Mantras, mindfulness but most of the time, even when I was calm and energised, I felt it was a little bit of boring. My ego was always in the way, though I couldn't see or feel or know truly what was the ego. Then a friend invited me in an Ayahuasca ceremony in 2014. I was never in shamanism and psychadelics, I had many negative bias toward it. The experience lifted a cloud. People who didn't know where I went commented how they felt I changed after this week-end. Since then I participated in many Ceremonies of Ayahuasca. (About 50) All the meditations that were previously so unfruitful seems now transformative. In 2017, it was my intention to experience more and more Oneness. Not just thinking about Oneness and see the concept, but having the experience. In many ways, layers after layers, I revealed more and more my center. My source. One of the friend I met through Ayahuasca was experiencing with the Toad and he told me about it. It felt like a good fit for my intentions. Since October I took 5-MeO-DMT 2 times. The first experience was so blissfully aligned to my intention to experience Oneness that I gave a second go last January. The second time it was more difficult, felt a lot of resistance ( that I eventualy accept). The true work continue to this day, oscillating between moments of impatience and confusion and the integration of this Oneness as not to feel only it's transcendance, but the immanent working of it in my everyday life. I feel more open and calm, even when the shit hit the fan, I accept more and more and feel the very fondational peace that is I. I want to thank you for all the testimonies read here, it helped a lot. You gave me many reference point to ponder. English is not my first language so sorry for the weird forming sentences. Deep gratitude !
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Re: Hi there ::: presentation
« Reply #1 on: February 22, 2018, 08:25:43 PM »
Welcome! We are glad to have you here with us and we look forward to growing together as a community :)


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Re: Hi there ::: presentation
« Reply #2 on: February 25, 2018, 11:46:17 AM »
Thank you HumbleVoyager,

Feeling this place is very welcoming  :D