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Infinite Spirit:
  This is a description of a recent 5-MeO-DMT experience. I really appreciate the opportunity to share my experiences with this incredible medicine & hearing from others feels like a wonderful way to connect, learn & remember. Putting what so often feels ineffable into words is a challenge, but it’s worthwhile to try, whilst recognising that any attempt at describing the experience of this incredible teacher is destined to fall short.
This dose was 8 mg of synthetic 5-MeO-DMT. I have previously done ‘5’ in the form of 120 mg of toad medicine yet I had never tried the synthetic version before. I had been assured of & trusted in the strength and purity of the material and was interested to compare the experience to my experience with the toad. The setting was a safe appropriate environment, specifically created to be a worthy container for ceremonies with strong entheogens. My sitter was my husband, with whom I’ve shared many ceremonies & whose ability to hold space whatever may arise, I trust implicitly.
I felt anticipation and certainly a degree of fear beforehand. Despite having worked with the medicines for many years, with considerable experience with N,N-DMT, my previous session with toad medicine had been one of, if not the, most intense enhanced state of consciousness that I had ever experienced. It had been so earth shatteringly powerful, a complete ego-death, that it had taken me nearly 6 months to integrate it enough to feel ready to return to that space.
I set my intention, meditated, prayed, and did some techniques with the breath & voice which I find beneficial before ceremony. We were using a glass GVG Sherlock vaporizer to smoke the material. I held the pipe, sparked the torch lighter and inhaled one long slow breath, until there was no more smoke. I recall for a brief moment thinking ‘oh, I’m not sure this is going to be that strong’, as I lay back. Immediately, an intense overwhelming rush of energy flowed through my body forcing me to sit bolt upright. I was catapulted into a fractal landscape comprising of incredibly fast moving bands of bright light that I was surging through. The speed & intensity was overwhelming as ‘I’ collapsed into the experience, with no choice but to let go with each passing moment…trust, be open & let go, let go, let go. It felt as though an energy had re-awoken deep within and was now bursting out through every pore of my body, splitting ‘me’ into a billion tiny fragments. The narratives of ‘me', as an identity, were being forced through the eye of an entheogenic needle until what remained was an embodiment of the energetic aspect of god consciousness within us all. Let go of the patterns, habits, stories that my ego has constructed, let go of fear, let go of all that isn’t awareness of the divine beings that we are. And in that awareness of the need to let go, comes an awareness of the work that is needed, now. An awareness that this is an opportunity for deep healing and release. ‘I’ could be in the flow of this divine energy through the use of movement & sound. To let go, meant allowing that energy to do as it needed with no restriction, to allow the frequencies to come through this voice, to allow this body to facilitate the shifts through specific movement, to release energetic blocks through sound. The combination of various patterns of breathing, frequencies & movement created a river that allowed a torrent of energy to flow through in the way it had to. The sounds came from deep within & from beyond, songs that needed to come through, deep base chants, higher frequencies, overtones, breath work patterns in sync with mudras created with the hands and arms. Waves of sound rolled through my human form, and through the letting go into that sound, the journey went deeper and deeper. And then the purge came. Rocking onto my knees, I fell forwards at my husbands feet, my throat opened and I began to wretch; spitting, snot running from my nose, tears streaming down my face, saliva dripping from my mouth...and it felt incredible. To surrender & purge what needed to be released. I felt overwhelmed by a sense of deep gratitude - gratitude for the work, for this path, for the healing that it has enabled, for the guidance offered, for sound & other tools that can facilitate the navigation of these states of consciousness. Unlike various ayahuasca or psilocybin experiences where there are often narratives and stories surrounding the purging: an awareness of what had caused specific blocks or trauma, within this healing experience there was no narrative, there was no room for stories about my past, there was only an energy that was moving & shifting & shedding parts of itself to make room for growth. My ‘story’ didn’t matter. The energy that embodies this human form in this moment had found its way to the heart of the divine where it could do the work needed to heal itself. All these words seem futile as I write them as they are me now trying to record something that is so indescribable. Much of this experience is hard to recall because it felt like ‘I’ had died & what was left was an energetic process propelled forwards by the medicine, sound & movement. After about 15 minutes, ‘I’ became more present & felt the need to be free of my clothes. Getting naked, I proceeded to dance, to chant & sing, to laugh with an overwhelming sense of pure unadulterated joy & gratitude for the divinity within us all, for the power & healing potential of these medicines, for the work that had come & that which was yet to come. I then entered a fruitful phase of guidance, connecting to several guides I have been working with for some time. These were fascinating moments during the experience. It felt as though the initial phase has been about cleansing and releasing, and once this main purge & bodywork had been concluded & ‘I’ began to return, a new phase with different kind of teachings could occur. I am a sound healer & within this ceremonial space I have several large gongs, drums, singing bowls & other instruments. I spent the remainder of the experience playing a large gong & singing, listen to what needed to be heard, singing what needed to be sung, as I slowly grounded back into the space assisted by the sounds.
Wow - this was a deeply healing experience, which I feel so grateful for. I am certain I won’t be leaving it so long before diving in again. The potential of this medicine is endless and I am keen to go deeper & open to further teachings. I’m glad I started using the synthetic 5-MeO-DMT at this dose, but I also look forward to higher doses. Regarding comparisons between the synthetic 5-MeO and the toad medicine, they’re obviously unique individual experiences, in different settings, at different points in my journey, however I certainly feel there wasn’t any distinguishable difference between both of the medicines ability to transport me into that divine connected state of consciousness. Both felt like incredible doorways to the heart of god consciousness with an intensity & authenticity that I haven’t found to the same degree, in any other medicines.
I use various practices on a daily basis such as meditation, breath, body & voice work and I find them all to be amazing tools for integration. In the weeks following this ceremony, I was able to attain much deeper states of meditation and with the use of drums & other instruments have reached unusually deep states of trance for journeying within.
I feel so blessed to be on this journey with an awareness of these incredible medicines, to find the tools I need to heal & to be open to the teachings available. I've been enjoying reading others posts & am looking forward to doing a lot more research here & having the oppurtunity to learn & share. What a wonderful resource & enviroment to connect with people also exploring conciousness through the use of these sacred medicines. With the choice between embodying the energy of love or fear, I certainly pray I can continue to embody love at every turn on this path. Much love to all you explorers of consciousness working with these divine medicines - much love  :) <3 _/|\_

gurudedicationananda:
Thank you Infinite Spirit for sharing this beautiful account of your recent 5-meo-dmt experience.
I too feel that it is a very sacred entheogen indeed, especially after my first and only experience with it.
Do you think that it is possible to speed up one's spiritual evolution and growth, development, and healing process as a human by ingesting 5-meo-dmt regularly, and in a sacred manner?
I am beginning to think that at low doses (which is the type of dose I took) it can be a great catalyst for deep meditation.
I have yet to exceed the 5 milligram mark.
I realize that in larger doses it can bestow very powerful and profound spiritual experiences and transformation.
I made an enhanced leaf blend with the remainder of my 5-meo-dmt which is intended to be smoked through a bong.
I've read that some people vaporize enhanced leaf blends, but I would rather just smoke it as is from a nice glass bong with some water in it, I think just one large inhalation will do it.
Thanks again for your wonderful account.

HumbleVoyager:
What a beautiful account, Infinite Spirit. Thank you so much for sharing with us.  _/|\_ <3

It is truly remarkable how potent this molecule can be for some yet not for others. A good reminder to start very low and work one's way up.

Infinite Spirit:
Thanks for your replies. Yes gurudedicationananda, I do think that working with these medicines can assist our process of 'spiritual evolution and growth, development, and healing processes'. I definitely feel like these amazing tools can open the doors to enhances states of conciousness where we have the oppurtunity to release the energy surrounding old traumas, and can be gifted a deeper understanding about the nature of reality, both of which involve spiritual growth and healing. Out of the different methods to ingest the medicines, I have found that the most productive manner is using a glass sherlock VGV vapor genie (though I imagine other similar pipes would work well too) and inhaling the material in one long deep breath. Thankfully with 5-Meo-dmt in its synthetic form, there is a lot less smoke to inhale than when smoking toad medicine or N,N-dmt, so it's pretty easy to get all the vaporized material in one breath. :)

Rising Spirit:

--- Quote from: Infinite Spirit ---Putting what so often feels ineffable into words is a challenge, but it’s worthwhile to try, whilst recognising that any attempt at describing the experience of this incredible teacher is destined to fall short.
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I wholly agree and I must say that you've a most lovely way of bringing to light much of what is nearly impossible to speak about, our deepest spiritual experiences.  When the mystical interphase of finite sentience and immersion into transcendence within the Infinite Web (supra-consciously), nothing really can be said of the seamless union...  as within the nondual field, oneself is effectively erased from it's propensity for subjectivity.  But enough can be gleaned pre-eclipsing and also, afterwards, during the post-eclipsing return journey.

As a sidenote, we must be relatives, since we have the same last name?  Right?  Lol   ;D


--- Quote from: Infinite Spirit ---I felt anticipation and certainly a degree of fear beforehand. Despite having worked with the medicines for many years, with considerable experience with N,N-DMT, my previous session with toad medicine had been one of, if not the, most intense enhanced state of consciousness that I had ever experienced. It had been so earth shatteringly powerful, a complete ego-death, that it had taken me nearly 6 months to integrate it enough to feel ready to return to that space.
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Please elucidate further, dear sister.  As a 5-MeO virgin, I am eager to know more of your perceptual experience with The God Molecule.  From my very first Kundalini awakening in 1978, with LSD-25, my ego-self has been gradually attuning to the resplendence of the nondual Omniself.  The blinding clear light caressed my soul and it has been a voyage through many dreamscape...  which each vanish in the effulgence of the Oneness.  And I so appreciate your using the term "Sacred Medicine", for no other description fits in my way of thinking about entheogens like:  LSD, mescaline, psilocybin and NN-DMT.  I currently, patiently await the anointment with Lord 5-MeO-DMT.   _/|\_   _/|\_


--- Quote from: Infinite Spirit ---I set my intention, meditated, prayed, and did some techniques with the breath & voice which I find beneficial before ceremony.  I recall for a brief moment thinking ‘oh, I’m not sure this is going to be that strong’, as I lay back. Immediately, an intense overwhelming rush of energy flowed through my body forcing me to sit bolt upright. I was catapulted into a fractal landscape comprising of incredibly fast moving bands of bright light that I was surging through. The speed & intensity was overwhelming as ‘I’ collapsed into the experience, with no choice but to let go with each passing moment…trust, be open & let go, let go, let go. It felt as though an energy had re-awoken deep within and was now bursting out through every pore of my body, splitting ‘me’ into a billion tiny fragments. The narratives of ‘me', as an identity, were being forced through the eye of an entheogenic needle until what remained was an embodiment of the energetic aspect of god consciousness within us all.

 ‘I’ could be in the flow of this divine energy through the use of movement & sound. To let go, meant allowing that energy to do as it needed with no restriction, to allow the frequencies to come through this voice, to allow this body to facilitate the shifts through specific movement, to release energetic blocks through sound.

The combination of various patterns of breathing, frequencies & movement created a river that allowed a torrent of energy to flow through in the way it had to. The sounds came from deep within & from beyond, songs that needed to come through, deep base chants, higher frequencies, overtones, breath work patterns in sync with mudras created with the hands and arms. Waves of sound rolled through my human form, and through the letting go into that sound, the journey went deeper and deeper. And then the purge came.
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I am fascinated to know which tradition you have learned from, in regards to breathwork and sound.  Have you studied Nada Yoga or Surat Shabd Yoga, Sufism or is your path an indigenous Shamanic one?  Regardless, the primary force is one which shatters the mind's illusions and allows for a shift in conscious-awareness, whereby the witness to one's own dreamscape enters multi-dimensionality and subtler and subtler frequencies of vibratory being, ascending through myriad vortices (only to then arrive within the immeasurable fulcrum and Divine state of the undifferentiated Godhead). 


--- Quote from: Infinite Spirit ---I felt overwhelmed by a sense of deep gratitude - gratitude for the work, for this path, for the healing that it has enabled, for the guidance offered, for sound & other tools that can facilitate the navigation of these states of consciousness. Unlike various ayahuasca or psilocybin experiences where there are often narratives and stories surrounding the purging: an awareness of what had caused specific blocks or trauma, within this healing experience there was no narrative, there was no room for stories about my past, there was only an energy that was moving & shifting & shedding parts of itself to make room for growth. My ‘story’ didn’t matter. The energy that embodies this human form in this moment had found its way to the heart of the divine where it could do the work needed to heal itself.
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Beautifully worded.  Your description brings tears to my eyes and makes my heart smile a mile wide!  Thank you, so so much, for sharing.   <3


--- Quote from: Infinite Spirit ---All these words seem futile as I write them as they are me now trying to record something that is so indescribable. Much of this experience is hard to recall because it felt like ‘I’ had died & what was left was an energetic process propelled forwards by the medicine, sound & movement. After about 15 minutes, ‘I’ became more present & felt the need to be free of my clothes. Getting naked, I proceeded to dance, to chant & sing, to laugh with an overwhelming sense of pure unadulterated joy & gratitude for the divinity within us all, for the power & healing potential of these medicines, for the work that had come & that which was yet to come. I then entered a fruitful phase of guidance, connecting to several guides I have been working with for some time. These were fascinating moments during the experience. It felt as though the initial phase has been about cleansing and releasing, and once this main purge & bodywork had been concluded & ‘I’ began to return, a new phase with different kind of teachings could occur. I am a sound healer & within this ceremonial space I have several large gongs, drums, singing bowls & other instruments. I spent the remainder of the experience playing a large gong & singing, listen to what needed to be heard, singing what needed to be sung, as I slowly grounded back into the space assisted by the sounds.
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Please share with us, if you are able to in words, something of these inner sounds. Is there a carrier wave tone or deep rumbling AUM vibration in your spirit flights with 5-MeO?  Much of my practice in deep meditation is centered on the internal frequencies of sound and the Medicines greatly heighten this vacuum-like, inner focus.  I have heard these sounds from all of the major entheogenic teachers and...  then ultimately...  The supreme quietude which emanates from the roaring silence of the Void. 


--- Quote from: Infinite Spirit ---Both of the medicines ability to transport me into that divine connected state of consciousness. Both felt like incredible doorways to the heart of god consciousness with an intensity & authenticity that I haven’t found to the same degree, in any other medicines.
I use various practices on a daily basis such as meditation, breath, body & voice work and I find them all to be amazing tools for integration. In the weeks following this ceremony, I was able to attain much deeper states of meditation and with the use of drums & other instruments have reached unusually deep states of trance for journeying within.
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Yes!  Integration is so key to bringing the treasures encountered during sacred voyages, into our daily lives.  There is a great peace derived from KNOWING directly, that everything is quintessentially... 

Wholly interconnected and that the Absolute is present in the relative, the Infinite within the finite, the Eternal spiralling inside of the temporal bubble of our transient personal perception.  Keeping our mind's heart open to the undifferentiated and wholly Unified Field, which incrementally blooms as the nectar of Amrita, the ecstatic bliss of the Omniversal unification embodied in human understanding...  we then truly create a more harmonious pathway for the indwelling soul through this dreaming, mortal paradigmn. 

I bow deeply to you, wise sister.  Much love and many thanks for being here now, touching and being touched.  Namaskar!   _/|\_

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