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i have suffered from depression for almost two decades. Severity of the depression has changed a lot over time, and in general it is pretty difficult to even assess anymore, since it has become sort of the new noral for me. I have tried most antidepressants as well as psychotherapy, to find not much of a help there. As a sort of last resort, I just got introduced to 5-MeO-DMT and had my first trips last weekend. I almost immediately noticed that my depression was gone, and I was in fact able to feel genuine happiness as well as sadness as soon as the most acute effects of the molecule were out of system.


I have been trying to stay connected to this feeling for the last few days, nurturing and taking care of myself, but right now I start feeling the depression rushing in again. I don't really know any reason why this would be happening, beyond to the obvious slight disappointment that the world just keeps going the way it always has even tohough I have now received something very important and precious.


So I'm just interested if anyone has similar experiences, or any pointers to reports or stories with 5meo and depression? I do have a plan of all sorts of integration practices, and I also do acknowledge that sometimes things may go backwards too. I'm not too worried about this right now, but of course would be really happy to be more prepared and aware in case my overall mood starts creeping back to depression mode.

I just had my first ever psychedelic experience, and yes - I got started with 5-MeO-DMT. My friend was sitting though the experience, and while he has some more experience with psychedelics, he hasn't really done a lot of facilitation and is no shaman or a therapist by any means. Also I don't really have a lot of friends or contacts with people with the same experience, so I'm looking forward connecting with people on this site. I have been lurking for information and experiences from this forum before my own trip, so I'm thankful for everyone on this site.