Hello I would like to talk about my experience with 5-MeO-DMT, 1st I want to apologize for not being poetic or philosophical
I decided to begin a long term journey with this molecule but my 1st experience was unprepared and almost on a whim,
this would be far from the 1st time I taken psychedelics ...so I have a scale and weighed out .0020mg using the pyrex pipe I received a few days before, I sat down on the couch chuckled to myself and said ok let's go, I took a big hit and instantly saw grey compact tetris style fractals, then I felt as if every neuron
was activated at the same time I felt a panic and vaguely heard moaning ... the next minutes could be described
as what it must feel like to die though some sort of horrific exhilaration... when I started to come back I felt nausea and found myself crawling on all fours, everything was like a stop action movie, finally I was ok, also my legs and lower abdomen were spasming as in waves as if I had gone into hypothermia and continued for about 45 min, long after the effects had subsided ...
.. so it's been 2 days now and I feel weird, I feel as if my heart has took a stress, I never had a panic attack but almost felt l need to go to the emergency room this morning, I didn't know if I was on the verge of a heart attack or panic attack, my heart rate was normal about 58/60, yesterday I almost felt I was going to start crying, you see I am separated from my wife and haven't seen my 2 daughters for some years now, I think I might be experiencing what some would call heartbreak... anyway all that aside I ordered some supplements to fortify the heart, stopped by the side of the road and picked some hawthorn berries and ate those, I read they fortify the heart and are high in phenolic acids good for the heart and in the olden time were taken for heartbreak ... so next time I will prepare and hope the experience will be less harrowing... even though this sounds harrowing I consider it a positive in the feeling something has started to change and something deep inside is trying to come to terms with it.