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Introductions/Newbies / Re: hi from Shari
« Last post by HumbleVoyager on August 19, 2022, 01:28:35 PM »
Hi Shari!

Welcome. We look forward to reading about your experiences. I will look into the posts in Korean. In the future, if you see any posts that you are concerned about, you can report them to the admin by clicking the words "Report to moderator" in the right hand corner of the post.

All the best,
HV
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5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / Re: horror trip
« Last post by shari on August 10, 2022, 03:04:32 AM »
thanks rising spirit, I appreciate it! I've been doing breathwork now. I have some fear of death after this horror trip that I previously didn't have...I believe we keep creating our own reality after death as well, but it's difficult to shake off the realness of that experience...
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5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / Re: horror trip
« Last post by Rising Spirit on August 04, 2022, 08:34:28 AM »
I am so sorry that you've suffered so much from your 2nd experience with 5-MeO-DMT.  And I wholly agree, you imbibed far too much of the sacrement.  Too much of any medicine is never good for the voyager's growth curve.  My only advice is to gradually ground yourself within this material realm and gently integrate your personal orientation to ordinary life again.  Prayer and affirmation are cathartic too.  There are a number of methods to firmly touch down:  Hatha yoga, Qi Gung, diet and nutrition, trail running, swimming, hiking in the mountains or walking by the seashore.  Sending you waves of love and heartfelt, healing vibes.   _/|\_ _/|\_
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Introductions/Newbies / Hello
« Last post by Nachoshrooms on August 02, 2022, 09:22:04 AM »
Hello all. My name is Jeff. I am so excited to be part of this group. I am in the process of my beautiful journey and am excited to learn and grow as much as possible.
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Preparation and Integration / Re: Anyone else have 5-MeO-DMT related injuries?
« Last post by shari on July 31, 2022, 07:54:01 AM »
hi Jo_ness,


I feel you. Although I have very little experience with this substance, only 2 times, I already exceeded my limits the second time when I had an absolute horror trip. I was back to 'normal' when the trip was over. But that night I didn't sleep at all and the day after it seemed like I was experiencing a psychotic episode with un underlying lower intensity of what I experienced during the trip and anxious thoughts of whether I had permanently damaged myself (my brain). I even had to call the ambulance and when I left the hospital I still felt like my perception wasn't ok as if I was drunk but not quite in the same way and somewhat 'stupid' in the sense that my brain wasn't functioning as well.   It's the second day after, I'm still not fully the old me, but I am better.


I was over or underhydrated or both, I'm not sure. Lost a lot of fluid.  They gave me a xanax which helped somewhat with the scary thoughts , but I also noticed my legs tremoring at times and believed I had permanent brain damage.
Since today is better, but still not entirely ok. At least I notice improvement, so I can tell you what I did:


At the hospital, they said my blood test came back normal. However, I thought my brain must have endured damage which they didn't check.


So back at home, I take some supplements which I know are good for your brain and nerves:
omega 3's (good for your brain)
choline (Choline is required to produce acetylcholine, a neurotransmitter that plays an important role in regulating memory, mood and intelligence )

inositol (Major neurotransmitters important for positive mood — serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine — rely on inositol to relay messagesAnd neurotransmitters play a major role in most aspects of your life, including mood, productivity, ability to handle stress, ability to learn and remember, sleep, cravings, addictions, and more)
You may want to take higher than usual dosages of inositol, more info here
vitamin B 12 (the methylcobalamine form)  + folic acid:  vitamin B12 plays a vital role for the nervous system.  It is also involved in the synthesis of important messenger substances such as neurotransmitters and hormones that control our brain function, thus our perception, mood and state of mind. )
niacin 500 mg which is known to cause a 'flush' > it can make you look very red and warm for a while because it dilates blood vessels (Niacin is believed to protect brain cells from stress and injuryNiacin is just another name for vitamin B3 and Vitamin B3 has many different functions in the human body. One of these functions is to increase detoxification and the physiological response to this is known as the niacin flush.)
I also took L-tyrosine, magnesium, vit C and saffron.

Lion's mane is known to protect against dementia, reduce mild symptoms of anxiety and depression and [/color]help repair nerve damage[/color].
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[/color]What I think may have helped most though, is the administration of ozone through my nose and rectally. I have an ozone machine (which you can buy off of ebay or aliexpress, such as here ).  Ozone can kill off toxins, because toxins can not survive in an oxygen rich environment.  Ozone has 3 oxygen molecules. One goes to toxins and kills them and what's left is oxygen.  When you do it by breathing via the tube into your nose, you may not be able to do it for long as it can make you cough severely (hard on the lungs, but not bad in my experience, although some believe it's bad on the lungs but I don't believe that, so please  do your research before attempting it)
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[/color]I wish you a speedy recovery!
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5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / Re: horror trip
« Last post by shari on July 30, 2022, 03:58:11 AM »
Ok, I need help.


I feel like I'm happing a psychotic episode right now.


What suppelments help?


Does Somethng like xanax help or makes it worse?
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5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / Re: horror trip
« Last post by shari on July 30, 2022, 02:26:58 AM »
Also I forgot to mention a symptom I noticed when coming back to my senses which was a lot of foaming (saliva) out of my mouth. I googled it and read it can happen with a drug overdose.  I didn't feel a crazy heartbeat or too much sweating though when I came out of it.


I haven't been able to sleep last night (I did it yesterday evening). I hope this will improve. I feel some type of after effect as if my mind still sometimes has a tendency to go into that 'collapsing ugliness' tendency but very mildly so or maybe it's just the sheer memory of it that still haunts me a little.   


I hope it will improve and I'm not sure if I need a therapist after this...


I read elsewhere that Martin Ball experienced insomnia for some time.  I don't know if he still does?  I also heard Leo Gura say in a more recent video he has some chronic illness.  Not sure if it's related to this drug use.  I think they both did a fair amount of it. It honestly makes me think I much rather go for the slow, natural method of becoming enlightened through the old-fashioned meditation method.  I feel a bit scared of intensity coming up too fast.  I'm sure that even if I did it again and had a positive trip, I'd have a harder time surrendering to even love feelings.   I don't want to ditch the positive side that others experienced but I feel the negative potential is under highlighted and what do we really know about potential long term effects as it seems this drug is still quite in its experimental stage..?





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5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / Re: horror trip
« Last post by shari on July 30, 2022, 02:14:21 AM »
I see there is some text missing in my original post.


Above the phrases that I checked, should be:

A lot of things that people experienced on this substance in the extreme positive way, I too experienced but then as the complete other end of the spectrum such as in these phrases:

'nothing can prepare you for this' Check.
'you won't even know the couch/bed you're laying on exists' Check.
'words can not describe what I experienced' Check.
'I no longer was myself' Check
'completely mindblowing/mind shattering / blows your previous beliefs out of the window.' Check

'I felt infinite (love') Check when it comes to the feeling of infinity/eternity, but then in a hellish like state as opposed to heavenly.

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5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / horror trip
« Last post by shari on July 30, 2022, 02:05:35 AM »
Hi all,


I feel the need to talk to people who had a similar experience as I did as I find this hard to place/digest.


I've had overall little experience with psychedelics.  I only smoked weed a few times in my life and tried some San Pedro mescaline and a mix of syrian rue and acacia (pharmahuasca?) that gave me some hallucinations and back and forth being thrown in between a feeling of a more severe state of depersonalization and more emotional states.


Anyways, not so long ago I stumbled upon 5 meo DMT on the web and was intrigued by its potential to use as a tool for (permanent) enlightenment.  I even read some reports of people who weren't enlightened from it but one person got cured from depression and another from depersonalization, so even just for therapeutic purposes I was interested as I have like a chronic but low level of depersonalization (had it all my life but experienced a worser degree on weed and pharmahuasca which went back to 'normal' when the substance was out of my system).


So I read as much as I could find on 5 meo DMT.  Mostly good reports, but also some bad and of course the terrifying reports on ego death, which made me have my doubts of trying it as many others have expressed as well before doing it.


I watched Leo Gura's video's and several with Martin Ball as well.  I decided to plug it as it seemed recommended as 'better' because the come up is a little slower than vaping and the duration longer and also I was going to do it alone because I have no trip sitter and vaping seemed more dangerous to do alone in case I wouldn't have enough time to safely put the lighter and bong down.   


First time I tried it, I didn't even have a proper scale but was too excited to wait and tried a small amount comparing it to Leo's plugging method where he showed an estimated 30 mg with salt as substitute, so I made sure I had less than that.


I experienced nothing close to ego death, but nonetheless it was positive.  It felt like a synthetic version of oxytocin and gave me a really nice deep body relaxation and made me caress and hug myself all the time, telling myself how much I loved myself, lol.


I could see how this could have therapeutic potential as it gave me some nice after effects as well, still kind of feeling the relaxing body load some days after.


So about a week later I had my mg scale and decided to go for a bigger dose.  Please don't judge me but I took a weighted 39 mg.  In hindsight I have to wonder why, because Leo said himself that 30 mg rectal was already too much for him.  Maybe, it was the combination of feeling like I didn't take enough last time and at the same time not knowing exactly how much I took, being excited to experience eternal love / enlightenment / having read other reports of going up to even 100 mg via the plugging method (I think there's also more factors at play with this method that can give a very different outcome in terms of strength depending on how empty your bowels are, whether there is still some leftover in the syringe and what not..) and thinking I've done enough affirmations that I was going to have a good trip.



After inserting it, I lay on my bed. I had some nice meditation music playing with a solfeggio frequency in the background, but things went terribly wrong.  I experienced what I could only define as eternal madness :'(
During the come up, I remember my mind just completely felt overloaded and felt like it was going through some mindblowing shit that I couldn't really place what was happening. I thought I had screwed myself forever and that I was stuck in a state of eternal madness/ crazyness from stupidly taking this little bit of white powder up my ass that made me even not feel human anymore.  It was like everything was constantly collapsing into itself as myself into a forever crazy mind that also went along with extreme annoyance. 


When I came back to my senses, I remember thinking (or saying?) I need love, I need compassion please.  I was no longer on my bed. I was on the ground and below me, was my vertical shaped mirror that initially was standing against the wall at the end of my bed which I must have knocked over. Other stuff was also on the floor that wasn't there before I laid down. My underpants that I had pulled back up before laying down were on my knees and 1 leg still on the bed. Surprisingly the mirror was not broken, but I could have wounded myself severely. I'm 'glad' this experience didn't last longer than an hour.   Who knows what would have happened if it lasted for 12 hours (as I know some other psychedelics last that long).  I was obviously not aware of my body nor my physical surroundings. I don't know if I screamed in terror for an hour, I was alone, but I don't think a trip sitter would have been able to help..


I can not possibly understand how my mind can even go into such as state and I was wondering if there are souls who experience this for eternity?? Does God have a handle on this? Does God have the power to take itself and souls (as part of itself) who end up there out of that unimaginable horror I ask myself?   I feel deep compassion for whomever is labeled 'mad' in psychiatric institutions. I can only hope nobody experienced what I did.  Whilst we often hear people say 'I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy', I often think, nah you'd surely enjoy the sweet revenge if you did it, because right now you're just experiencing yourself as a victim which is typical for victims to say such things and forget how they are just as much the perpetrator (at least everyone has that side in their personality as well).  But this, I can not possibly wish upon anybody as this wasn't just hell, or just madness, but eternally so and can not be compared to any other hellish experience that I know of on this earth. At least, we know that here, there is an ending to horrible experiences the moment you die or at least I hope everyone goes to heaven after they die.


I remember reading someone commenting that God is infinite love, but also infinite suffering.  At the time, it made sense to me, intellectually, because how could eternal love exist without the opposite?
But having experienced what I previously could never have imagined in the way it happened, I'm not so sure anymore about my beliefs about 'God'.  Btw I never believed in a religious sense, but more that God is a state of consciousness that is all pervasive, all-loving, all-knowing and all-powerful and that is all that is and that is who we are at our core, but I didn't experience that.


A lot of things that people experienced on this substance in the extreme positive way, I too experienced but then as the complete other end of the spectrum such as in these phrases:


'nothing can prepare you for this' Check.
'you won't even know the couch/bed you're laying on exists' Check.
'words can not describe what I experienced' Check.
'I no longer was myself' Check
'completely mindblowing/mind shattering / blows your previous beliefs out of the window.' Check
'I felt infinite (love') Check when it comes to the feeling of infinity/eternity, but then in a hellish like state as opposed to heavenly.


I can not possibly try this substance again nor recommend it to anyone, it's too risky and the fact that we're dealing with milligrams, it's so easy to overdose on it.  I know, I took too much anyways, but please don't judge because I'm really traumatized by this.  Anybody can relate?  Thanks  :'(
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Introductions/Newbies / hi from Shari
« Last post by shari on July 30, 2022, 12:51:47 AM »
hello,


I'm Shari here. I've had 1 low dose experience with 5 meo DMT and a higher dosage .  Second time was absolute horror and I will write about it in the testimonial section. 


Sorry but why are there posts in here in Korean(?).  I thought this was an English speaking forum.  Hopefully the moderator is still around...
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