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I certainly don't feel like an expert or authority, but wanted to make the comment that as Martin ball states, if your asking yourself if you think you've had enough, you haven't. So starting out with a smaller dose is a good idea, but be prepared to do second round if you don't break through.
It really is important to reach a full release dose in my opinion.
It can be a wild ride but if you think you need more, do it. It can be scary to load up another pipe and hit it again but without going all the way your just not achieving the goal. There is nothing like a full release non dual experience.
I hope this does not sound reckless in any way, but it's the only real reason to work with 5meo in my view.
Good luck.

General Discussion / Re: Building up tolerance
« on: January 28, 2018, 07:34:56 PM »
I appreciate the feedback
I also agree with your comments.
This certainly was an experiment and I've asked all the same questions.
I've also learned to navigate the non dual state with confidence[size=78%]. I do seem to have progressive and shifting experiences and learn new aspects of reality from each trip. The early trips were personal and mainly body oriented with a lot of subtle themes relating to my storey and ego. The middle trips were more galactic in nature with the big god picture of creation and evolution. The cosmic joke. Do we all get this? I seamed to get stuck here for a few days and started to feel I was stagnating in an escapist manner. But the last few sessions I focused on feeling the energy in my body and began to track down some stuck trauma. I worked with it and a few early life experiences arose that I realize I've been hiding from all my life. [/size]
This is where I've stopped my use due to getting the message that true liberation is mastery of the ego. Not because I'm afraid to go deeper but rather because the addiction aspect or excapism. I could not achieve full release despite relatively large doses. I'm going to shift my attention to meditation and mushrooms to work with the hidden trauma for now. Ayahuasca would also be a good venue if I get an opportunity. I'm scheduled for an eboga ceremony in march and hope this may help me to uncover and deal with the things I don't fully see clearly yet. Obviously I'm a fan of entheogens. I've never had addiction issues but am motivated to get my shit together.
So without judging the entire experience as good or bad, I'm extremely grateful for the medicines opening my eyes to a new world and being useful tools in self discovery.
Any comments others have in the healing properties of 5 would be great.

General Discussion / Building up tolerance
« on: January 27, 2018, 08:47:05 PM »
This is my first post so I'll give a little background.
I had my first experience with synthetic 5 about five months ago. I began doing a session every two days for a few weeks. I took a few months off as my provider was out of town. A few months ago at an aya retreat I did four doses of toad. Finally about three weeks ago I ordered a gram of 5meo hcl and embarked on daily use. My typical session is three or four rounds with the goal of full release doses. I don't have a scale so my reference is eyeball on a knife tip. so in two weeks I've almost gone through the gram and the portions seem around double from when I started.
I'm very conscious of the addiction issue. My goals are to heal some trauma and address negative patterns in my life. I'm not trying to escape reality, rather come to terms with it.
My question is has anybody experienced a build up of tolerance? I was under the impression this was not possible.
Any comments are welcome.

Introductions/Newbies / Intro
« on: January 26, 2018, 03:48:29 PM »
Happy to find this forum as a new 5 user.
I've been using Martin balls books as my foundation and just keeping an open mind.
My use is relatively high. I decided to make it a daily practice for the short term in dealing with challenging a life situation. I look forward to learning and sharing on this site. I'm in northern Canada, where we have a small group of reality seekers working with various medicines.

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