Hi JaguarWoman,
it's a situational depression that happened after my husband confessed to being unfaithful throughout our entire marriage, and then asked me for a divorce. So I suffered betrayal trauma and then his rejection. I felt something was wrong with me, like I wasn't desirable enough in mind or body. I got trapped in self pity, negative thinking, and egoic thinking that created more pain and anger in me than I could stand. This experience has shown me very much how we create our own realities, as I was creating my own personal hell. Bufo removes my ego and helps me feel a sense of inner peace and joy, but the experience opens up this inner struggle I have with accepting divinity. I feel compelled to keep working with it to both help me move through my pain and depression, and to find a connection with the world that only Bufo has shown me to exist. I have been journaling after each session, and I've started to meditate again. I am hoping that with this work, I become a person embodying the qualities of those who inspire me. Thank you for your kind words and advice.
it's a situational depression that happened after my husband confessed to being unfaithful throughout our entire marriage, and then asked me for a divorce. So I suffered betrayal trauma and then his rejection. I felt something was wrong with me, like I wasn't desirable enough in mind or body. I got trapped in self pity, negative thinking, and egoic thinking that created more pain and anger in me than I could stand. This experience has shown me very much how we create our own realities, as I was creating my own personal hell. Bufo removes my ego and helps me feel a sense of inner peace and joy, but the experience opens up this inner struggle I have with accepting divinity. I feel compelled to keep working with it to both help me move through my pain and depression, and to find a connection with the world that only Bufo has shown me to exist. I have been journaling after each session, and I've started to meditate again. I am hoping that with this work, I become a person embodying the qualities of those who inspire me. Thank you for your kind words and advice.
