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Interesting, my username changed


Wow...well, I continue to reflect on everything, slowly feeling it weave its way into my being, but the last few months have been a lot...
With some space between the experience and now, I certainly realize that I KNOW things I didn't used to know...I understand so much more about source/spirit, and the interconnectedness of us all...
Sometimes in my dreams I will still have a 'pulse' with oneness...
And my inner child healing, wow, that is coming along nicely.
Thank you so much for responding...
I had hoped so deeply to connect with others here, but not much of that happened, so I truly appreciate your message
Wishing you an amazing year

Thank you for this post....
I am gobsmacked by your words 

Only speaking from my personal experience here...but yes, absolutely I think it has the potential to rapidly bring that interconnectedness to the forefront.
I remember a deeper psilocybin journey I had once, where I wrapped a quilt around myself that my great-great-grandmother had made. Instantly, I was bombarded with thoughts and images dropping in from the collective. It was rather overwhelming for me, but my first clearly defined experience of interconnectedness.


For me, repeatedly (but mostly during the reactivations), I experienced something similar but much more intensely. I felt like I went hopping around the matrix, connecting to people/places/events that transcended all structures of time and space. Also, during the ceremonies themselves, an indescribable sense/feeling/knowing of the oneness/connectedness of all things, but particularly nature. 


Also, interestingly, the other people present during my experience (5 days), it's like our fields became intertwined. A lot of energy exchanges, both intentional (supportive), and circumstantial (walking by me for example), started happening after about 2 days. It was this beautiful sense of "healing together".


I agree with what HumbleVoyager said though - process and framing...I am feeling rather alone in my integration, and although I am 'ok', I really struggled the first few days with feeling SO OPEN, like, TOO connected...and now, a couple of weeks later, just trying to let it all sink in and move forward without over-thinking everything I now know/feel/have experienced.

Hello everyone
Earlier today I was searching for integration information to help me. I found a podcast which I listened to, that introduced me to this forum.
I am 2 weeks out of a retreat experience where I had Bufo 4x full strength, 2 microdoses, 3 kambo treatments and 1 very challenging Samadhi ceremony, all over the course of 5 days. The whole time and for several days after I basically didn't sleep, but tried to let my body rest as I went through what seemed like endless reactivations.
Overall, this was by far the most profound thing I have ever experienced of course (previous experiences with LSD, psilocybin and ayahuasca), and a TREMENDOUS amount of clearing and healing took place. But...now I am home and having some pretty strong emotional swings, feelings of confusion as I try to provess everything and think of how I will apply it moving forward.
The integration aspects of the center I attended are lacking, which is way I am here.
Hoping to find more info, share, connect, understand more about WTF just happened and move on in a most positive way.
Thank you for listening 🧡