https://chadcharles.net/torus/
Thanks so much,
free-range, for reviving this old thread. It's personally fascinating to me to read about my prior understanding of
whiteout experiences, insofar as never having been blessed by 5-MeO-DMT before. Having had ten mind-blowing immersions with the sacrement, occurring over 2.5 years time, all I can say is that words are not enough to truly convey the quintessential moment that everything one has been conditioned to perceive, shifts so rapidly and very, very exponentially into a bright white light paradigm of sheer oblivion.
Thus, wholly undifferentiated force quickly consumes all conceptual boundaries and fixed modalities of personality... so much so, that all distinctions between this or that, the inside of the outside, oneself or another... all dissolves into a blindingly white vortex of pure omni-dimensional consciousness (conscious of exactly what, though?) wherein there exists no individualized context, nor any shred of perceivable manifest dualism at play, at such a pivotal point in the divine eclipsing with the 5 medicine
Is it then an absolute existential vacuum suctioning for an eternity in the making? Again, it cannot feasibly be said in human linguistics. And while it cannot truly be said, ironically, it can be known directly but at an immense cost, I would think? Death-Bardos-Rebirthing. Now from this side of the proverbial looking glass, I do humbly feel that what this indivisible force is conscious of is simply being existence itself but without form or any iota of substance. It flies way beyond reason or finite quantification, naturally, for subjectifying a state of non-dual energy is pretty meaningless. It may even be misleading, in an unintentional way? That being said, like a month to the flame, spiritual curiosity draws our rapt attention deeper down the rabbit hole, so to speak.
The desire to return to the crystalline hub of infinite presence, now outweighs all other relative mortal interests. This seems to sit in the background of ordinary life, eager to rekindle when the timing is perfectly aligned. Likewise, one's capacity at fully surrendering one's own dreamscapes for a seamless union with the source of every plane or dimension,
the bright void... incrementally becomes quite clearly focussed. Yet I cannot honestly say with any conviction, that during the peak moment within all ten epic ceremonies, that I had any perception nor even any definition of myself as being a subjective witness. Not exactly like being a blank canvas, it's really more of an inherent sense of vibrating in unison with an intricate, all pervasive lattice-work or perhaps interconnected light strings, all spiralling as the unseen embodiment of the torus dynamic, add infinitum.
Getting lost in the void and finding new life without thinking or even needing to know anything. Just vanishing within the dawning understanding of always having been this unbroken webbing of fractal interrelationships, for they are apparently indistinct from the whole of the unified field and omni-matrix but are also an eternal rippling of quantum pulsations, all synchronized in an epicentrical fulcrum of an unlimited, sacred mystery. As a human word,
ineffibility only vaguely hints at this stage of supra-heightened awareness. Samadhi and Satori are traditionally used in Asia but in the peaking moment, the pure translucency surely evades any and all attempts at naming the unnamed source.
Of course, when the eclipsing moves beyond full zenith and individuated self re-crystallizes as one's primary subject of attention... there is such a heightened, intense feeling of gratitude. It is such a valuable, cathartic rebirthing experience! And more and more, the remembrance enigmatically shimmers effulgently within the periphery, like an enticing jewel, glistening seductively within a mirage and yet, the refracted luminance endlessly draws one to focus clearly upon a metaphorical, twinkling star high up overhead.
Be well all.