Hi all. I have had two experiences with Toad about a year ago. The first time it felt like the most healing thing I had ever done, I felt like my body had released everything that it had ever held. The second time was scarier it felt like I was pushing up against something. It felt a little like ecstacy and terror at the same time. I'm assuming that what I was feeling was my ego holding on or pushing back. I didn't have a non dual experience either time. While the experiences felt healing I didn't really feel like they had a lasting effect. I've been using other entheogens regularly for about the past 3 years. I didn't really think I would do Toad again or at least not for a while as I figured I'd stick with aya and mushrooms. I just finished reading Martin Ball's book on non dual liberation and felt like this was a whole new take on the medicine and the methodology for using it. I was interested in joining this forum to see if there was anyone out there who has worked with a practitioner in the way that Martin Ball describes in his book Entheogenic Liberation. I have a renewed interest (really I should say enthusiasm) about working with this medicine but I imagine it may be difficult to find this kind of practitioner? Would love to hear others experiences around this topic or thoughts on this method. Thanks everyone!