I have done two ceremonies with Toad medicine.
The first time I broke through and shattered into the light and felt my ego dissolve and then only white light. Nothing else - a void. The experience left me wanting more.
I have no memories of the second time except when I was re-entering and could hear myself begging for an answer to my question. The next 4 plus days when I closed my eyes I would re-enter that void sensation. I liked that experience (sensation).
I would like to go through one more ceremony ...because I just want to "know". The first two providers (different people) of Toad where not "spiritual" and therefore did not offer closure of ceremony. If there is another opportunity to experience Toad I would like it within a ceremony setting with a skilled Shaman/healer/spirit guide. How does one find that magical person
