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I am curious what the long-term impact has been on those of you who have done 5-MeO-DMT, either after a single breakthrough session or from developing a relationship with it.

In my case, I am almost six months out from my first journey with the toad and the impact has been very positive. However, it has been a mixture of realizing on one hand we are all essentially from the divine or a part of it, and yet still...maybe not mundane, but still ourselves. It's like in a sense we are God or from some unfathomable thing experiencing itself the us and filling ourselves up with Love...but we also still us. We still have to do the laundry, pay our bills, and it's not like I have superpowers or anything. The mean lady down the street still doesn't like me, even though she only exists for this made up example.

Point being, in some ways everything is different. When I remind myself of what I experienced it is impossible to look at anything or anyone the same way again. And yet in another way, nothing has changed. Obviously my experience is different, but the reality of our consensually agreed upon daily reality is the same even if I, arguably, am not. I feel like I am still working through what that means and am curious how the rest of you have grown from your experiences. I also plan on doing the toad again next year, but want to give myself some time to process and ponder on all of this first. I would love to hear what changes you've noticed from your journeys if anybody is willing to share.

Realizing this is an old post...

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It is always clear from "there" that this is true and that it doesn't matter a whit if "I" remember that or believe it from here. And yet this little self persists in having preferences and even worries.

I do not have insight into that, but it does make me wonder about the purpose of those preferences and worries beyond survival. I suspect that is some of it. I would wonder if you find that changes over time with further integration or additional sessions as you gain more experience apart from that "I" that is you as an individual?

Welcome aboard, friend.  I've come to the understanding that it's not the number of journeys one embarks upon that is most important, with the sacred 5 medicine, it's the integration and actualization of the profound insights and epiphanies that matters the most.  Moving from our dualistic state of perception, to the nondual, unitive field,  can be overwhelming and confusing after the epic voyage culminates.  Finding buoyancy and balance are key to our spiritual attunement and this takes some powerful internal house cleaning.  It's like endlessly polishing the mirror of one's soul.  Aho.  🙏✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️

Thanks for that. I believe I have a sense of that. For me, thus far, it's been balancing the felt sense that we are all of the divine, or of the same substance, and yet I am also "me." The experience both raises questions and offers, not necessarily "knowledge" so much as an experience. For me it a very "unitive" experience, both feeling one with creation but also getting a sense that we are all connected and part of everything (which is obvious in some regards, but certainly felt profound in the moment). I am me and yet a part of me, and "me" did not exist.

I suppose my takeaway from that at present is what do I take from that, and how can/do I keep using that experience to "polish the mirror of my soul?" Not that there is an easy ready-made answer for that, but it's something to consider. I also feel like the immediate post-integration was great, but it is an experience that I am still mulling over and think about quite regularly

I had my first toad experience in February. My experience was awe inspiring and very positive, and felt like becoming one with everything, losing connection with my body and identity. There was some slight instinctive resistance, but overall it was as smooth as what was a violent storm of an experience can be. I did three rounds, the first one was probably a moderate does. The second and third were larger doses and that's where I felt like I was one with God and the Universe and all creation and the Divine. Not a bad way to spend a Saturday afternoon, eh? The third felt unnecessary, but I wanted that to use for moving forward.

I did not experience God as an entity so much as, well, everything. And my guide described it as we are all God experiencing through ourselves. For me it felt like we are from the universe, but along those lines. It also felt like what I would describe as a "born again" washing away of everything. There was a rocketing away from our consensually shared reality, a dissolution of self, then an experience of what felt like clarity before my nervous system reconnected with my body. It really felt a LOT like what Christians describe as being born again, only in a highly visceral and experiential way.

My guide said for most people the effects tend to last for a year and then after a year a second round is useful as a reminder of what was learned/experienced. I also suspect that revisiting that experience after a year can help me reflect on the changes made, what old patterns I may have fallen into, and perhaps having the wisdom of the first experience and some time I may find something else comes from it. At worst, it will be a powerful experience and a reminder of...well, whatever the hell you want to call it.

As for my question, I am curious what those of you who do 5-MeO-DMT with any regularity, or who have simply done additional sessions after your first experience, have found you got out of it.

In a sense, it feels like I climbed the mountain, met or communed with God/Existence/whatever, and had the clear thought that nothing would ever be the same. There is both a sense of "what now?" as well as a sense of "What more am I really looking for from this?" There does not seem to be a need which I find is a great space to be in. Those questions are not meant to be negative at all, but rather open-ended questions to which I likely do not have a real concrete answer to. However, I am also open to having it be something I may learn from. Another psychonaut friend of mine does psychedelics twice a year as a sacrament and that also holds some resonance. I do not want do it just to do it, however I also like the idea of some sacred purpose. If I never do it again, I feel very much at peace with that. If repeat experiences somehow offer something of value, I am also very open to that as well.

I would love to hear any thoughts or experiences. Thank you in advance.

Hello Everybody,

I'm a fairly recent first-time traveler, so to speak. Looking forward to learning more. My one question is, after the initial journey and breakthrough, what more do you learn or in what ways have you grown from subsequent sessions.