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Toad Experiences and Testimonials / Re: exploring the wonder toad
« on: May 16, 2019, 12:50:22 AM »

hi there,

it is being a month roughly since my last immersion in the toadie. Well there have been changes for good, I have to say that it has opened a door to life in

me, I am enjoying life more than before, the caress of the wind , the beauty of a girl, the sounds, sights, everything and everyone, I am laughing a lot more,

enjoying music, talking more to my family, talking more to people in the streets, I am much more uninhibited than before, resuming loving life.

I have to say also that this is not the first time that I am like that, there have been previous experiences like this one, one of them with synthetic

scopolamine, then with the headless way, then with other holy people...

I have also to say that I did quite a bit of spiritual practices and got blessings from places and holy men and holy women, so perhaps all that plus the toadie

have thrust me into the life I am living now.

The other day day I was talking in the streets and talking to a mum and his son from Colombia, I asked her if spain was treating her well and she

said, "Thanks to existence itself", that is what I am feeling nowadays.

Thank you for your listening, and love, love, love to everyone/everything , to existence itself and perhaps too, to non-existence as well.

  _/|\_ <3 <3 <3 _/|\_

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Toad Experiences and Testimonials / Re: exploring the wonder toad
« on: April 24, 2019, 01:02:32 AM »


hi humble Voyager;

thank you for hosting this wonderful site where we can communicate with other brothers and sisters travelers on this beautiful planet mother earth.

since last xmas when i was initiated in the sacred sapito and ayahuasca, 1st change, i somehow stopped without any effort to bite my nails though sometimes

the vasana(past impression) comes up, the 2nd is that i began to listen and enjoy  music more than ever before, ah, music one of the languages of the soul!.

Said this i feel the need, as a gardener that i am, to cultivate the garden of my soul and keep alive the embers left in my heart of my last sapito blessing .

thank you, thank you, thank you  to every and all existence. celestinohari




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Toad Experiences and Testimonials / Re: exploring the wonder toad
« on: April 22, 2019, 11:30:28 AM »

Hi 5 everyone;

Today I had my 10th sapito immersion, 82 mgs, my nephew Adri as sitter, may God bless him!

WHAT A WONDER AND BEAUTY! Words fail there, BIG BLESSING, MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT!

One of these experiences can change life for good, treasure the experience in the chamber of the heart!

MAY LIFE BLESS US ON AND ON!

Celestino  <3 _/|\_ <3




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Toad Experiences and Testimonials / Re: exploring the wonder toad
« on: March 26, 2019, 11:23:58 AM »

hi there;

9th immersion in the wonder toad, 74mg. my nephew acting as sitter.
this time the after glow lasted much longer than other times, about 1 hour or so. the place where sapito maravilla is taking me is SATYAM SHIVAM SUNDARAM, very, very peaceful, no thoughts, concepts or whatever, but that place is very much ALIVE, nothing to do with anything heard or thought about,kind of virginal land!

THE UNIQUENESS OF THE HUMAN BEING CANNOT EXPRESS ITSELF BECAUSE OF THE STRANGLEHOLD OF THE EXPERIENCES OF OTHERS.(U.G.)

 it is as if el sapito maravilla(the wonder toad) dissolves the knots of the soul / heart(hridaya granthi).

It is being a Big Blessing  every time.

Gracias Sapito Maravilla.


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Poetry and Art / Re: Pupil of Bufo Alvarius toad
« on: March 13, 2019, 06:42:00 AM »
hi vedic paul,

it seems to me as the bottomless abyss of the absolute,or, nirvikalpa samadhi?

all the best. celestino

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hi equable, thank you very much for your reply. i have got an eclipse for 38€ as they were not sold in the grow shop, they are not meant for weed. the light bulb vap is on the way.

lots of light and love. celestino

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Toad Experiences and Testimonials / exploring the wonder toad
« on: March 13, 2019, 05:40:39 AM »

hi everyone,

this is my 8th immersion in el sapito in the last 3 months, the former experiences are written in the newby section. My nephew as sitter, may the Lord bless him, 67mg organic wonder toad, I am increasing the dose by 10 mg or so each time and smoke it now every 2 weeks.

I slightly dissappeared this time, there were some visuals...once more words lacking for describing the experience, there has been more silence this time though...and the old song comes to my mind,"THERE IS NOTHING LIKE PERSONAL DIRECT EXPERIENCE". I would like to add that the experiences have been always very peaceful, somehow I am trusting the medicine and I don´t know what will come up in the future though.

all the best to everyone. celestino





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hi equable, thank you for sharing. may I ask what type of pipe are you using? thanks

all the best. celestino

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Introductions/Newbies / Re: newbie
« on: February 28, 2019, 12:07:51 AM »

hi everyone;
last monday was my 7th immersion in "el Santo Sapito" (the Holy Little Toad). I was assisted by my nephew A. 54 mg I am increasing the dose 10 mg each time.

I stayed in a semiconscious state, I would use the sanskrit word SHANTA to describe the experience, which means peaceful,calm, serene, easyness, silence. It is kind of like el Sapito untied the knots of my persona and take me to a state of Shanta, absence of goals,of tensions, Absence/Presence state of consciousness.

Breathing became very profound on coming back to my self I told to my nephew,"Today there are less words,aren´t they?"
A  Little later I told him about Sri Ramakrishna and his abiding in his samadhis and  the state of Bhavamukha where he finally abode by the grace of the Divine Mother,Bhavamukha means having one foot in the absolute, non-manifested state, and the other foot in the relative or creation/projection state.
After a while my nephew had to leave so I had to shut up my mouth…

I would equate the Sapito with GRACE in the sense the christian tradition means. I wonder if in my normal state of consciousness I could ever rise to those heights...EXQUISITENESS.

may we all have Light and Love. Celestino


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Introductions/Newbies / Re: newbie
« on: February 15, 2019, 12:07:57 AM »
hi raising spirit,thanks for your reply. in 3 of my experiences with the medicine consciousness disappeared, so no light , no kundalini, no aum, no whatever, not a single thing, deep peace on becoming conscious. it seems i have not had a breakthrough,any way i am happy wherever the medicine is taking me presently, anyway I am raising the dose of the medicine each time I take it. i have heard from Gerardo Sandoval that above 50mg there is psychedelic experience and above 70mg entheogenic experience, so i will let you know of my next experiences.

in the other 3 smokes i did not loose conscious of myself and the world around, in one i was awake in a kind of absent-present type of cosnciousnes and I thought perhaps this was the state sri ramana marshi what he called sahaja samadhi or natural samadhi. I saw the people in front of me and I said to myself,"are they not feeling the vibration of my state? -ego reconstructing?-

in my second conscious experience with the medicine, what came to me was,"there is no union, no light, no breakthroug, but everything is ok as it is -tathagata, suchness, isness - and there was a feeling of peace and love. in my third and las experience with the medicine i was conscious and I saw some fractals with open eyes and a feeling of peace and beauty, satyam-shivam sundaram, this visión lasted a minute or so, then peace and love.

all the best and never let it rest <3 _/|\_

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Introductions/Newbies / newbie
« on: February 13, 2019, 11:05:59 AM »
hi everyone,
allow me to introduce myself to you,Ii am a spaniard 66 years old-young and I have come in contact with the toad (el sapito in spanish) last december.

a bit of my backgound, I was brought up as a catholic. in my early twenties I began to practice hatha yoga, then I contacted the sri ramakrishna people and I studied vedanta as expounded by them, very much interested in advaita, sri ramana maharshi, sri nisargadatta mj., j. Krishnamurti, u.g. Krishnamurti. then I explored Rudolf Steiner´s Anthroposophy and I did a training in biodynamic agriculture at Emerson college, england.

I began at 17 smoking pot then LSD, then addicted to heroine for 7 years, dropped substances and back to yoga vedanta at 33

last fall I ate 10 psylocibe semilanceata (monguis, bonguis are called in spain) whichIi found in a field and later I began reading about psychedelics, then I came to DMT a bit later to 5-MeO-DMT and I said to myself this is what I have been looking for all my life. the experience of union with the divine!

there is a place in Madrid where they facilitate the toad, ayahuasca,yopo,kambo, iboga, and there I had my first experience of the toad(elsapito), when I was reclining on my back  the words "Señor"(my Lord) came out of my mouth then I lost consciousness and the experience was not at all what I had read or imagined, I did not have unión with the source, the all, nothingness. I felt very peaceful on coming back and the realisation that words did not matter at all, nirvana, samadhi, etc are just words and they don´t matter there, one day just when sitting to meditate the words Vedanta came to me, Vedanta means the end of the vedas ,the words! . i am exploring the toad presently,i am raising the dose 10 mg each time, next one will be 50mg and it will be my 7th smoke.

love and light to us all. celestino


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