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Greetings to each and all of you.  I was blessed to embark upon my fourth experience with 5-MeO-DMT, an intense immersion within the timeless bloom of this present moment, this eternally dawning now.  As with my first three journeys, last summer, I entered the blinding luminosity of a full-blown whiteout experience.  I was fully conscious every minute of the direct interphase.  Oh my God!   _/|\_ _/|\_

I have studied the phenomenon of conscious-awareness for close to forty five years now and have come to understand that consciousness itself, is much like light. It can be enveloped in darkness, as with the unconscious-ness of deep sleep, semi-conscious, as with our "normal" waking life and supra-conscious, as with heightened states triggered directly by entheogens.  This sacred medicine opens up yet another level of conscious-awareness, one which transcends the subject/object dichotomy. 

I refer to this state as Omni-consciousness.  It is a nondual frequency of mind. Well, way beyond what we ordinarily conceive of as being of the mind. It's really more of a blossoming fulcrum of ever- expanding universal mind.  I believe it is a state without any iota of thought, without any degree of self-identification and exists as a still point of unwaivering attention, one in which all differentiation dissolves into a holistic pulsation of undifferentiated, Absolute being.  During full white-out mode, ideas change from one's routine of accustomed thought patterning, to a deep pause of such a mechanism.  Within such a silencing of the mortal mind, there becomes a space for other modes of experience.  Opening doors to perceptual vistas beyond the beyondest of beyonds.

Each time I journey with this molecule, I am swept away by the incredible sonics accompanying the immense shift in attention.  So much about the trip is purely Yogic and Tantric in nature.  What the Sufi mystics have named "Shabd" (divine music), becomes highly discernible as one's concentration occilates at higher and still higher levels, more expanded and primordial vibratory frequencies.  Behind and deeply within these ringing harmonies, rumbles the sound of eternity, the overtone which ignites all motion from an immeasurable stillness...  whose sonic birth echoes the holy droning song of AUM, whose alluring tone is eternally buzzing.  This ignites a dawning and it is refracted within the myriad reflections of the One.  Twin currents wrestle entwined, each a reflection of the other, opposite energy polarity. 

It's sound always pulls my fixation from the mortal to the immortal.  The One expression naturally creates this grand, panorama of diversified life, upon which the light of God freely shines, mirroring it's Absolute intelligence and simultaneously, radiates an all-embracing touch of a love.  A freedom that has no destination, preference nor intended design aimed freely at each point in the picture.  It simply manifests into being from the great white void and emits consciousness...  who can rightly say just why...  simply because it does. 

Again, there was a paired interplay between the observer and that being observed.  One moment no-thing was happening...  all was undifferentiated brilliance.  An effulgence within any shadow to recognize it as effulgence.  So blinding as to be wholly ineffible.  The next moment, there was the sense of a sort of gravity of self.  A vested interest and yearning desire to become...  to be existent.  I am.  I am here.  I have always been here.  I shall always be here, forevermore.  Then, all dissolves back into the undifferentiated.  Here, I am unborn.  I am wholly unformed.  I am before I am.  I am yet to arrive as who I am.  I simply am.  Am I really?  Lol   ::)

This enigmatic fluttering counterpoint was matched by the hugely rapid beating of my heart.  This dichotomy betwixt the clearly perceivable interconnection of the infinite web of being or unified field and the all-pervasive emptiness and insubstanciality hidden within everything, the unbroken core of the indivisibility of the inherent divinity which seats as epicentrical to each and all.  I guess what I am driving at is that from one millisecond to the next, the whole of the universe came into intricately majestic form, while that which cannot be divided hums along indivisibly, re-absorbing God and the entire cosmos as if it never had even happened at all. 

Learning to regulate the heartbeat during the imbibing of this powerful sacrement, has become more natural to me.  Remembering to breathe evenly and keeping the attention steadily focussed upon the Omni-conscious activity throbbing inside of my physical shell and coursing throughout the circuitry existent as humankind.  The release of kundalini continues to sky-rocket from the base of the spine, to the highest portal atop of the higher crown region or seventh chakra. 

In my deepest inner experiences, this area is where the energy explodes into a cascading fountain, flooding into the entirety of the auric/ethereal, Atmaic body, which is seamlessly sheathed within the 3 dimensional material body.  As this occurs, tears spill from the corners of my eyes and Amrita trickles from the upper brain to the center (pineal) and furthest rear area of the throat, tasting sweet and most euphoria inducing. 

This then is Samadhi?  It cannot be said from our relative point in the dualistic paradigmn.  Such ecstatic immersion is too transcendental to describe in mere words alone.  It's all about the direct vibe.  I feel that the entrancement is more about pure sensation, soul resonance and our interconnection with the whole of the great web of life.  Of course, during the full eclipsing and the whiteout peak...  nothing but the whiteness and immensity of an indescribable energy source is known as oneself (one self).  I believe that the very same singularity of "one self", is perrenially existent as everyone, everywhere, always and forevermore. 

And that is all that is known.  In so knowing, the knower is consumed by the knowledge.  At such a moment, there is really no longer anyone to observe anything.  Only room for One.  Even so, conscious-awareness still abides and it does so in it's own Omnipotent way.  From this side of the looking glass, it is the reflection of the faceless face of Brahman.   _/|\_ _/|\_

Two days ago, there was a distinct ascendance from the very tipping-top of the rear crown area, to a vortex of energy an arms length higher still.  It is an eight chakra and the point at which the soul enacts life through the body.  Sort of like a puppeteer manipulating a marionette but without mortal motive or desire.  From this realm of conscious-awareness, everything appears to unfold spontaneously.  Whatever takes place within the fertile dreamscape of the ego puppet, belongs to the dreaming marionette, endlessly dancing out of an admixture of fear and aspiration, weaving many unfolding desires into the storyline and as a dualistic puppet, remains ever hungry for true love.  <3

Introductions/Newbies / Re: newbie
« on: February 14, 2019, 10:56:13 AM »
Hola and welcome to this wonderful collective.  I am curious if your other six voyages with the medicine were the same for you, in terms of union with the Divine.  Have you been able to stay consciousness during your subsequent journeys?  Have you had the white light immersion in any of your 5 encounters?  Has your Kundalini been activated from any of your sessions?  Where you aware of the sonic nature of the universal pulse, "the carrier wave" or rather, the AUM vibration echoing into eternity?  For myself and the three eclipses I've had with the 5 sacrement, entering the nondual state was sudden and honestly, quite overwhelming.  Everything about it paralleled the classic arousal of Nirvikalpa Samadhi. 

It's sooooooo difficult to describe a place where there is no thought and one's self is wholly dissolved within the immensity and rapture of oneness.  In my 3 experiences, the awareness of being existent remained palpable, yet, I was not a separate aspect of the whole, observing the phenomenon, I had a deep remembrance of having always been the source and the center of that which is beyond any iota of division. This culminates with a dissolution of ego, becoming lost in the blinding effulgence of the undifferentiated void, the unified field of the Omniself.  I share many of your spiritual interests and yogic inspirations, especially Advaita Vedanta.  Please share more of your experiences with us.   _/|\_ _/|\_

General Discussion / Re: Forum Funding
« on: January 23, 2019, 11:41:26 PM »
While ultimately we travel alone, when we touch down it's nice to have a safe haven to share, to learn, to contribute to.  It's only fair that we share some little responsibility in it's continuum?  Truly, many small gestures become a success.  Just my feeling on this matter.   _/|\_ _/|\_

General Discussion / Re: Forum Funding
« on: January 23, 2019, 11:29:09 PM »
I would be glad to pitch in.  Do you have a PayPal account?   _/|\_ _/|\_

Introductions/Newbies / Re: An Intro
« on: January 23, 2019, 11:27:07 PM »
Welcome to the 5 Hive family.  Please dive right in and share some experience reports from your intrepid journeys.  I feel there is great worth in sharing our visions, insights and ideas, sharing our respect for all life and the tremendous beauty of those mysterious voyages beyond relativity and separation from the totality...  deep into the Infinite Field.  I look forward to your narratives, my friend.   _/|\_ _/|\_

General Discussion / Re: Forum Dead?
« on: January 16, 2019, 08:54:51 PM »
Perhaps much of the silence relates to how difficult it is to retain 100% recollection of the peak moments and this being coupled with the daunting task of putting into words, the One single word, putting an observation about indivisible consciousness?  The human mind is accustomed to existing in the realm of the dualism of polarity, the dynamic of subject and object...  whereas, when 5 stops all thought, pure awareness alone resides.  My struggle is based on bringing my focus back up that high and entering the bright void.  There are no feasible words.  That stuff and maybe it's just the Holiday season, as this might be part of the long quietude.   _/|\_ _/|\_

« on: January 07, 2019, 10:20:17 PM »
My very first Kundalini experience was triggered by LSD-25 in early 1978.  It was perhaps my 6th or 7th psychedelic experience?  And despite my years of involvement with sitting meditation (initially Zen but followed by TM), I had no idea exactly what Kundalini was or what changes it could bring to one's perception of oneself, universal energy and...  an avenue to embracing the immensity of Infinity.  Naturally, this led me on a great quest, one fueled by my initial, spontaneous experiences with the "serpent energy". 

I eagerly became involved in the Self Realization Fellowship in early 1980, which expounds the teachings of Swami Paramahamsa Yogananda (whose book, Autobiography of A Yogi, changed millions upon millions of lives).  Kundalini/Kriya Yoga is the science of energy flow and direct spiritual transmission.  It holds that prana or vital life force, is intricately linked to the breath and the vital spiritual body patiently awaits our focussed attention to awaken within this 3-dimensional paradigmn.  Meditation is sooooooo key towards this endeavor, a path leading beyond the beyondest beyond.  The auric body, the ethereal form which resides concurrent within the physical body, is nurtured and essentially ignited by the rise in our Kundalini.   

Many moons have passed since then and living life has brought me a greater understanding about the nature of this universal play of an unbridled energy and it's silent counterpart, ecstatic repose.  Many things have shaken my surface views on my own life, shattering the self-perpetuated dream of my fragile bubble of individual existence.  At the appex of my search for higher consciousness, following decades of sadhana and deep inquiry...  the alluring call of the entheogenic path pulled my attention right back to the neo-shamanic ways.  Mushrooms led me to N,N-DMT and nearly a decade later, to the miraculous grace of 5-MeO-DMT.  This sacred molecule has redefined everything I know about conscious-awareness, direct intent, spiritual resolve and the ineffible nature of the Absolute force which is all pervasive, wholly inerrant within all of this consensus world of reality, that we all co-create together.     

After some study and reflection about this sacrement of medicines, I found this website, a safe haven for those baptized by the power of the Toad healing.  A kind and wise soul helped me to fascilitate my inaugural voyage with 5.  It superseded everything and more of what my entire spiritual journey had revealed.  Granted all medicines are external allies and without their intervention, we wander through the avenues of reason and imagination.  The Kundalini release shook me to the core and I honestly expected that I had gone and done it...  overdosed and in so doing, died.  Thankfully, I live on to tell the tale.  At the peak moments of the voyage into Divine Light, it was difficult to maintain poise and posture.  I fell forward, hands outstretched, as I fell into the expanse of an infinite, all-absorbing presence.  Holy...  God!!! 

The Kundalini shot up the spinal axis with such intensity and immediacy, I was scarcely able to hold my attention upon the HUGE ascension to the higher crown region.  Good lord...  the parallel waves of energy which rises with the rushing force of the God Molecule, crisscrossed at each chakra, oddly, it did not find it's home within the sweet spot of any psychedelic traveler, the all-seeing eye, the proverbial third eye or Ajna chakra.  The current lingered for some minutes but shifted much higher, only to explode like a supernova within the field of the limitless expanse of the Sahasrara (the 7th chakra). 

Within seconds, all I could perceive was unlimited primordial Light.  I had been dissolved by the sky rocketing eclipse.  The whole of my perceptual field was fully immersed in a fulcrum of insubstanciality, undifferentiated effulgence.  Tonal frequencies hummed and buzzed with tremendous presence.  I find that 5 loves to use sound and vibration to reveal the higher truths.  I have had many whiteout experiences but this and the two other anointments which followed, lifted my awareness to the point where the difference between oneself and all other selves is zero. There are no words, truly, but suffice it to say that such grand immersions are what leads me deeper and deeper into my daily spiritual practices.  Another benefit is a far greater feeling of interconnection with all other life forms engaged within this web of life we weave as an intricate collective whole.   _/|\_ _/|\_

Ethics and Ecology / Re: BEST PRACTICES from The Conclave
« on: December 21, 2018, 11:29:15 PM »
Word.  Let's keep what's sacred, purely sacred.  Love is an infinite gift.  One without measure or price.  Wisdom reveals everything that's needed AND all that is required is direct immersion.  An eclipsing of oneself and Godself...  as there is no difference.   <3

Introductions/Newbies / Re: My 1st experience ...
« on: November 22, 2018, 09:28:21 PM »
Welcome home and please do continue to share your experiences with the 5 medicine.  Was it natural Toad venom or lab synthesized 5-MeO-DMT?  I just read your 1st trip report.  Sorry to hear about the discomfort.  Are you planning on taking another journey with a higher dosage?  Thanx for sharing!!!  8)

Science / Re: Omega Brainwave Activity
« on: November 08, 2018, 09:52:25 PM »
You know, the Lamda wave meets many of the criteria for my theoretical Omega wave.  It's activation correlates to mystical and out of body experiences and the brainwave activity therein.  The most fascinating thing to me is that while it vibrates at a frequency of up to 200 Hz, it has been observed to ride piggy-back upon the easy breezy Epsilon wave, whose vibrational frequency is a staggering .5 Hz!  So, logically speaking, does this suggest that the highest measurable Hz frequency links to the lowest Hz frequency?  This is the kind of thing that keeps me up late at night.   ;D

That being said, what I have proposed as a theoretical hypothesis about an Omega wave, may well be the point where human consciousness transcends the brain and moves into hyper reality.  Awareness exists without a thought or any sense of one's own individual self.  If my theory about that kind of heightened, super state of mind I label Omega holds any weight at all (and admittedly it may not), it must be an end point in the spectrum, an unbroken stillness which exists in vast, eternal proportions.  It's intriguing to ponder about these things, eh? 

After a descent amount of balancing and integration, I now feel ready to share some details of my experiences accumulating into 3 sequential, uber deep voyages into the blinding white light, which this sacred molecule so effectively gifts, whose energetic upsurge thereby transposes the earnest pilgrim straight into infinite conscious-awareness.  1, 2, 3...  and gone.   _/|\_ _/|\_

Granted, this is a bold assertion indeed but if one surrenders to the immense force, one fuses within the fulcrum of a full attunement within the heart of the indivisible Godhead. What I have gleaned from my triad journeys and immersions, all boils down to:  surrender/ ego death/ transcendence/ union with infinite being and gradually, this is crystallized into an innocence blooming as an awakened rebirthing.  Ideally, the heart expands beyond all boundaries and feels connected to all life, everywhere.   <3

Sure, we return to our accustomed self-orientation but everything is very, very different.  A potent shift has taken place and the dreamer knows by first-hand knowledge that what humanoids call " God" is everywhere, present as everything, encompassing everyone, forever.  I'd like to add and I've little doubt that each human being who has been touched by this immense medicine will concur with the simple proclamation that All is One.  All true entheogens shed light upon this eternal truth....  yet 5 removes the artifice of personal existentialism.  And it does so in a remarkably brief amount of time.  Wow...  just wow.  Words are not up to the task of squeezing the Absolute into a nutshell.  I am still humbled and shattered by the impact.  And most grateful, surely.   _/|\_ _/|\_

Rising Spirit, thank you for your beautiful accounts. I really hope 5-MeO crosses my path soon. :)
Why thank you so much for the kindness.  Honestly, my small contributions to sharing my experiences with this powerful healing molecule have been essentially fractured and rather vague.  This is not like me.  What has been the biggest challenge to translate is the nondual pause which occurs as the force dissolves the intrepid voyager.  Each time I bring my attention to recalling the peak moments...  I begin to re-experience the powerful moment where I was wholly stripped of myself.  All thought was suspended, all associations with my "normal" self were completely stilled.  What existed was this supreme state, an empty fullness which through it's primacy, has caused everything else to bloom into existence, everywhere, as it always has and will continue to do so forevermore.  On a positive note, I've compiled my notes and will be presenting the detailed descriptions culled from my 3 immersions with the self-shattering magikal transcendence of 5-methoxy-N,N-dimethyltryptamine.

Science / Re: Omega Brainwave Activity
« on: November 01, 2018, 01:10:24 PM »
Quote from: RoundAbout
Thanks for the response.
OK, so can you estimate the frequency in Hz and tell us which areas of the brain the omega frequency is most active in?

Thank YOU for your responses.  As I stated from the onset of this thread, I merely theorize this particular brainwave state exists.  I am being admittedly right-brained and intuitive and as such, cannot validate my theory with any certainty, specificity or exact quantification.   I do sincerely wonder if a more evolved technology existed today, we might find levels above and bellow our current understanding about the spectrum of functioning taking place within the human brain and perhaps other species of animals?  That being said I lack any verifiable data, therefore, my idea stands more upon the rather abstract notion that there are multiples of alternate brainwave frequencies and they are still, rather under-researched. 

As for the Hz frequency of the proposed omega wave, I would suspect it to be very high, more so than even hyper-gamma or lambda waves  As contemporary science reveals, there are more than just the most easily understood quintet of brainwaves:  alpha, beta, delta, theta and gamma...  there are also:  kappa, mu, lambda and epsilon waves.  Admittedly, a great deal of my musing revolves around the idea of a state of mind which is wholly nondual in nature.  Those who have been transported into such a fulcrum of undifferentiated transcendence, abloom with the blinding light of infinity, there unfolds a point wherein the mind essentially stops.  It is neither a seizure nor a state of comatose.  It seems as if it resides above the physical brain mass, a frequency which seats in higher dimensional hyper-reality.  I like to note that from the onset of the acceptance of the science of EEG, way back in 1959, much has unfolded. Even gamma wave research had to be built by expanding the criteria in selecting participants to study.  Yogins and Buddhist monks have contributed a good deal to what we have gleaned above higher brain functioning.

I alluded clearly as to the implied nature of this brainwave in naming it "omega".  It is proposed as the high vibrational level of mind wherein all thought is suspended completely, ergo, there is a stilling or silencing of the mind.  It might be understood as a deep pause. Having the experience of 5-MeO-DMT, as either natural toad secretions or the lab made synthetic, is wonderful in this regard.  The dissolution of the self into the indivisible unity of the One...  cannot be properly spoken of, so ultimately it can only be given a name or a title.  As a state of being, it has historically been named in many descriptives like:  samadhi, satori, ecstatic rapture, absolute bliss and many others, each relative to it's own cultural context.  It is as a state of mental attention the tipping-point whereby subjectivism ceases to function within the cognitive resonance of the individual.  It may be most enlightening, as a perception but this is eclipsed by total immersion with in the unified field. 

This is arguably, where imperical science can no longer feasibly measure the phenomenon or formulate any repeatable experiment by which it could fix such wholly spiritual perceptions into a clearly defined subject, one adhering to both consensus reality and the laws of physics.  Well, at least the impasse exists within the paradigmn of our present degree of rational inquiry, as it is directly funded by research organizations who follow specific protocols.  Mystical experiences are difficult to map.  Religion fails equally, in mapping said fields of consciousness.  I simply suggest that conscious-awareness exists beyond the material brain itself and that it is primarily consciousness which creates mind, not the other way around.  Again, thanx for your contributions in this discussion, as I am not seeking total or even partial agreement, I simply seek the truth.  Often, said truth is only a mystery until new discovery brings light to breakthroughs in our collective understanding.  It's exciting to think about the burgeoning advances in our present technology, isn't it?  The best is yet to come! 

Some interesting links:,%20Gamma,%20HyperGamma%20and%20Lambda%20Brainwave%20Activity.htm

Your energy is sincere and most beautiful.  I wish you all the best upon your intrepid spirit journeys into oneness.  Please share more of your profound experiences.   _/|\_ _/|\_

Remember: always accompanied. Always.
Thank you for sharing your journey, Pedro.  Was this flight a difficult one for you?  Your awe and gratitude were very touching.  Why do you suggest being, "always accompanied"?  I have only taken solo voyages and always do, regardless of the entheogens imbibed.  Bless you, my brother.   _/|\_ _/|\_

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