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#1

5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / Re: 5Meo vape pen

Last post by Handshake - August 28, 2025, 08:14:36 AM

They do need to be used very carefully, and even then it may be possible for the vape solution to become more concentrated over time, and in some cases it's impossible to know what the actual concentration is in vape pens. There are some low dose protocols for using 5meo vape pens carefully but they depend heavily on carefully tracking the concentration of the vape pens, tracking precise dose timing, etc.

They have the potential to be safe, but the norm is sadly to aim for higher concentrations in vape pens, shooting for a "one-hit breakthrough."

#2

Preparation and Integration / Re: Facilitator/sitter request

Last post by Handshake - August 28, 2025, 08:03:04 AM

Hello, please note that this is a harm reduction forum and not a place to find facilitators. Forum members are welcome to ask questions about how to determine a suitable facilitator, but we discourage finding and vetting of facilitators on this forum due to the anonymous nature of this platform.

I wish you the best in this search and hope that you can find resources elsewhere.

Also keep in mind that 5-MeO-DMT is illegal where you live, and therefore asking for a facilitator on a clearnet site puts both you and the facilitator at risk.

#3

General Discussion / Re: In Memory of A Community M...

Last post by Handshake - August 28, 2025, 07:55:55 AM

This project is part of their legacy, and there's some great information about the use and benefits of low dose 5meo. https://patternproject.substack.com/

#4

Plant-Based 5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / Re: Yopo

Last post by Handshake - August 27, 2025, 10:48:12 PM

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#5

General Discussion / In Memory of A Community Membe...

Last post by Handshake - August 27, 2025, 09:44:46 PM

Hey everyone,

I was informed today that on August 6th Marcus suffered a major stroke and passed away on August 22nd.

A GoFundMe has been created on behalf of Marcus and his wife Geffen, to offset those expenses and to provide ongoing financial support.

Marcus, along with his close friend Bill Atkinson (who passed away in June of this year), revolutionized the use of 5-MeO-DMT perhaps most notably through an Erowid article published under the name Grace Within, which made 5meodmt vape pens a possibility, and shared that information freely, along with sharing the insights of the value of low-dose 5meo. This was something that we had spoken about on several occasions, and it was really heartening that they came to know and share the value of the lower dose range.

Please consider sharing the GoFundMe, and donating if you're in a position to do so.

https://gofund.me/e826e216

I'm open to any questions or any clarification you may be interested in.

Thank you,
Handshake
 

#6

General Discussion / Re: Long-term Impact of 5-MeO-...

Last post by Handshake - August 27, 2025, 09:33:59 PM

Really well put, Lopsided.

My experience has been similar. Once you see the bigger picture, you know what's there. It becomes an inner knowing, just like you remember a hike that you've been on or a waterfall you've sat by. And yet like you said, nothing "magic" happens aside from this new awareness. You still are you, with your gifts and your drawbacks, your hang ups and the challenges you face. We still have to work on our daily lives. Our relationships, our politics, and even the process of knowing ourselves as we grow and evolve.

I have found that there are times in life where using psychedelics (in this case 5meo) gives us greater insight and awareness. It helps us slow down and remember the nondual perspective, let go of the things we don't need to hold onto anymore, and keep moving towards what's good. It can connect us to our intuition, and show us various paths ahead.

I have found that 5meo has been a powerful tool for all of those things, and it has also taught me a lot about getting out there and really living. And sometimes that's a long integration. But over time, and after really immersing yourself in the drama(s) of life, you may start to find those same truths and same perspectives that you touched during these journeys. That process takes time, patience, and a willingness to keep turning towards what is challenging. We have to be willing to let the water smooth the stone.

Thanks for opening this discussion, I enjoyed getting to reflect on this!

#7

5-MeO-DMT Experiences and Testimonials / I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME

Last post by shmitpiex - August 26, 2025, 12:09:10 AM

I'm going to try to form words to explain my first experience with 5 MEO DMT. I have a LOT of experience with psychedelics, LSD, psilocybin, ketamine, aya, hauchuma, peyote, etc.

I just have to say that this was the MOST PROFOUND MOMENT OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. WORDS DO NOT COMPUTE AND CANNOT DO JUSTICE TO THE EXPERIENCE I JUST HAD. THERE ARE NO WORDS IN THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE THAT CAN MAKE SENSE OF WHAT JUST HAPPENED.

Ego dissolution does not TOUCH this experience.

We did a titration up method with inhalation.
My first hit was a simple 2 mg hit from a pen. I felt an immediate sense of relaxation of my body and a sense of ease. I felt bliss bubbling up from all extremities and into my core. It made me think that this must be what heroin feels like the first time you do it. A tingling and feeling of well being all over. I got a huge smile on my face just imagining what a higher dose would feel like. I sat up for more. Next, was 13 mg 10 second inhale with the vaporizer. I laid back and felt the overwhelming feeling of disintegration, yet I could still feel my story and ego holding on. I was feeling my body trying to release, undulating and shaking, feeling the thoughts coming in and me trying to "meditate" through them, let them drop. They keep coming, the ego keeps trying to hold on. "What is my friend thinking? What is my body doing? What is this feeling? How can I explain this? Why do I keep having thoughts? Why can't I stop the thoughts? What are thoughts?" LET IT GO, STOP. JUST STOP ALREADY. I was shaking my arms and body and brushing off my skin thinking my stories were clinging to it. I kept saying LET IT GO, you dont need them (the stories of self). I sat up and asked for more. Next was a 7 mg 10 second inhale I felt the same similar dissolving wave pulsing through my body and a letting go and sinking deeper than before. I felt the undulations coming and waving through my body. I sunk in and really tried to let the thoughts go, understanding that this was my body shedding stories and getting into the core of my energetic field. I allowed it all to rise, with no feelings or thoughts around what was happening, just feeling. I felt a lot of tension in my mouth and jaw let go as the undulations came up my spine and out my head. I was still hearing myself still felt the sense of my body and knew that was still a little bit of my ego hanging on by a thread. I allowed myself to to let the energy pulsate and then came the energetic full body organism of pure bliss, allowing pieces of the "self" to die which then filled back in with an overall feeling of supreme well being and bliss that causes a full body laughter and orgasm. It was an incredible feeling of pure bliss and energy release. I had a taste of how deep this could go and I was ready to go even deeper. I sat back up for another dose. This time was 5 mg dose of 5 second inhalation. Instantly I knew this time was different. I laid back and felt all the rest of the pieces of "me" fall away. People talk about ego dissolution, no this was different. This was FAR BEYOND that. There was NO WITNESS here. There was NO I, there was only experience, awareness itself, becoming one with the universe, ever encompassing love. Pure being, nothingness, emptiness. It was an embodied feeling of reality itself without "me" in it. It was pure love, pure being, pure and total peace. There was no ground, no sky, no body, no separate "knower." Everything and nothing all at once in a place of no time, no space, nothing yet somehow EVERYTHING. WORDS DON'T EVEN WORK HERE. "I" wanted to stay forever. When I started feeling pieces of "me" come back online, I could tell I was immediately trying to make sense of it all. The best I could call it is a spiritual orgasm. I wanted a cigarette. *** called it the "Cosmic Joke." There were NO WORDS. HUMAN EXPERIENCE DOESN'T HAVE WORDS FOR THAT WTF!!  After I came to, I was just in complete AWE and utter SHOCK of the whole experience. WHAT THE F@&$ WAS THAT!? How can one go back to regular life after that?! Why are we not giving this molecule to everyone especially at the end of their life to help them realize that death is going be so FREAKING BEAUTIFUL?! DEATH! YES! WOW HOW ARE WE SO AFRAID TO DIE? WE GET TO SPEND INFINITY THERE!? IN THAT PLACE? WE ARE SO LUCKY! WHAT A PRIVILEGE IT IS TO BE HERE AND TO DIE AND SPEND INFINITY THERE! WOW. I CANNOT WAIT TO SPEND INFINITY THERE. Again came another wave of pure bliss and joy, intense celebrations of life and love and the full range of emotions we choose to feel here. Death is going to be so liberating. THAT FEELING IS AVAILABLE TO US AT ANY TIME WE JUST HAVE TO GET PAST OUR EGO STORIES. WE HAVE THAT AVAILABLE TO US AT ALL TIMES. Please let me never forget that.

#8

Introductions/Newbies / Hello after first 5 experience

Last post by shmitpiex - August 26, 2025, 12:03:03 AM

So excited to be here and connect with others who have experienced this incredible medicine.

-J from California

[Aha Moment]

#9

Introductions/Newbies / Re: New Traveler - Question on...

Last post by Rising Spirit - July 30, 2025, 11:15:23 AM

Welcome aboard, friend.  I've come to the understanding that it's not the number of journeys one embarks upon that is most important, with the sacred 5 medicine, it's the integration and actualization of the profound insights and epiphanies that matters the most.  Moving from our dualistic state of perception, to the nondual, unitive field,  can be overwhelming and confusing after the epic voyage culminates.  Finding buoyancy and balance are key to our spiritual attunement and this takes some powerful internal house cleaning.  It's like endlessly polishing the mirror of one's soul.  A-ho.  🙏✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️

Thanks for that. I believe I have a sense of that. For me, thus far, it's been balancing the felt sense that we are all of the divine, or of the same substance, and yet I am also "me." The experience both raises questions and offers, not necessarily "knowledge" so much as an experience. For me it a very "unitive" experience, both feeling one with creation but also getting a sense that we are all connected and part of everything (which is obvious in some regards, but certainly felt profound in the moment). I am me and yet a part of me, and "me" did not exist."

This is where we pilgrims of Spiritus find a kind of circular logic presented from the cosmic teachings conveyed by the profundity of the nondual experience, via paradoxes ad infinitum.  I must also emphasize that it's not just chemically emboldened psychonautical voyagers who arrive at this same conundrum:  as monks, mystics, madmen and mediums also come point blank, face to face, with this mysterious irony.  I encapsulate it within my thoughts, as being that Aha Moment, whereby it becomes crystal clear that the holistic nature of the Omniverse, both immortalizes the individual and erases the individuated perception of the seeker as if he or she were merely a dream sequence, one without any reality or lasting permanence.  And while all that exists is Sacred and within such perfection, it's not fixed nor is limited by any form, contained substance nor strata of manifestation...  yet, this very sacredness creates, fully embodies and eventually re-absorbs the entirety of all phenomena back into the emptiness of the Clear Light of The Void.

It gradually becomes palpable to those who journey into Samadhi states, that God / Brahman/ Source / The Great Spirit/ The Eternal Tao...  is all that is in it's vast, limitless, causation.  I am, or seem to believe myself to be real, but that very personification is an illusion I experience as myself.  A dreamscape within an infinity of perpetual dreamscapes.  Even so, what becomes evident is that a divine presence permeates every iota of said illusion of oneself.  Yes, we are unreal when seen from a pure quantum level, while simultaneously, we are manifestations of the Absolute at play within the web of the relativity, itself a universal mirror of sorts.  Both the causative force which sounds the primordial first note, and the endless echoing of that Holy sonic vibration.

"I suppose my takeaway from that at present is what do I take from that, and how can/do I keep using that experience to "polish the mirror of my soul?" Not that there is an easy ready-made answer for that, but it's something to consider. I also feel like the immediate post-integration was great, but it is an experience that I am still mulling over and think about quite regularly."

I humbly feel that  what we are compelled to do is to make an assessment about how we do, or do not hold this mysterious revelation/ conclusion quite near and dear (keeping it as a secret treasure), said "polishing the mirror of one's soul" becomes a bonafide spiritual pathway, by earnestly bringing into clearer focus our very actions and intentions.  It might be likely that we are both mere phantoms and are also, living Gods and Goddesses manifesting this entire glorious masterpiece of living throughout the multiplicity of myriad dimensions?  By perpetually reminding ourselves to continue honing our attention and  dusting off the near ceaseless accumulation of illusory dust that existing within a dualistic paradigmn stirs up.  Yet, I feel that it's best for those of who spin our wheels within the sometimes contradictory, after-effects of mystical entrancement,  to embrace this paradox as a magical dance.  Or perhaps even as an eternal song? 

It requires honoring the focus of perception, discovering the thread of interconnection and cultivate soulful attunement within this complex dream of manifest  creation, whilst shattering said mirror...  into infinitesimally tiny light particles dissolving into sheerest formlessness.  Now, you are most astute in saying that there are never any genuine readymade answers.  Every effort we now make to understand how to integrate the experience of Unity and its mirrored twin, Emptiness...  often seems like a merry-go-round of mental gymnastics.  And surely, it really is if we are being 100% objective.  Only in the depth of silence can be heard the Omniscient vibration and while a subjective merging happens by following the scintillating reverberations of the roaring silence, within the fulcrum of the nondual,  timelessly hums the voice of infinity.  So, the internal journey becomes a sort of daily calling, a soul mission if you will, to find that divine note being struck endlessly within the grand orchestration of this vast and diverse fabric of universal being, becoming and eventual dissolution.  It may well be so, and I honestly do realize that I may  more full of shit than a barrel full of monkey poop, but I offer 100% sincerity, which is my intended goal. Yeah, it's just my blah, blah, blah but it comes straight from my mind's heart.  Lol.   😁

A-ho and Namaskar.  I see you and do honor you, my new friend.  👁

#10

General Discussion / Re: Long-term Impact of 5-MeO-...

Last post by Rising Spirit - July 30, 2025, 05:27:50 AM

Thank you for posting such a most provocative thread.  From my own 12 experiences, over a four year period, I'd have to say that a profound change has taken place in my day-to-day perception of existence. While any bonafide entheogenic medicine can reliably shift conscious-awareness and rewire the brain, 5-MeO-DMT stands out in my mind's heart as the pinnacle of such tremendous transformative immersions.  Yet, as with all chemical enlightenments, we return to our dualistic reality and are left pondering the immensity of the journey.  That said, once the veil has been lifted...  there is no turning back.  On my own path, it's been an evolving process of voyaging beyond the beyondest beyond, and then condensing back to ego, settling back down into ordinary life and living.  I refer to this phase, as do most experienced psychonauts, as the integration period.  It requires grounding the taste of the infinite, throughout the seemingly mundane activities of mortal, existential perception. 

I personally liken it to finding buoyancy.  How does one ascend into the ineffible, merge within the limitless oneness, and through re-coalecense of individuality, retain the pure essence of the nondual? Frankly, one one hand you cannot, yet on the other hand, there remains a divine remembrance of having always been interconnected within such a field of absolute Light.  This intuitive recollection can be nurtured through deep meditation and it inspires us to cultivate a steady attitude of holistic fusion, honing the attention to focus clearly upon the eternal now, no mater how mundane the circumstances.  Which is certainly the proverbial, work in  progress.  I fancy the notion of embarking upon the process of touching the insubstanciality of pure being/non-being and finding the way to rediscover the endlessly transforming, vital link with earthly living as it evolves.  Holding unswerving attention upon interplay betwixt the Supreme state and the isolation of the personal self as it seeks contentmrnt and true purpose.  This journey has no short cuts but it does have inspiring episodes, some quite detached and blissful, some agonizing and cathartic...  those which lead to a clearer understanding of the unified field of resonance humming quietly in the epicentrical core of our blooming human revelations.  A-ho and Namaste, my friend.  🌎