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#31
Spirituality / Re: Oblivion and The Dissoluti...
Last post by Lopsided Nobody - July 25, 2025, 08:08:48 PM
Realizing this is an old post...

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Quote from: seeker on January 16, 2023, 01:59:23 AMIt is always clear from "there" that this is true and that it doesn't matter a whit if "I" remember that or believe it from here. And yet this little self persists in having preferences and even worries.

I do not have insight into that, but it does make me wonder about the purpose of those preferences and worries beyond survival. I suspect that is some of it. I would wonder if you find that changes over time with further integration or additional sessions as you gain more experience apart from that "I" that is you as an individual?
#32
Introductions/Newbies / Re: New Traveler - Question on...
Last post by Lopsided Nobody - July 25, 2025, 08:01:46 PM
Quote from: Rising Spirit on July 17, 2025, 10:12:53 AMWelcome aboard, friend.  I've come to the understanding that it's not the number of journeys one embarks upon that is most important, with the sacred 5 medicine, it's the integration and actualization of the profound insights and epiphanies that matters the most.  Moving from our dualistic state of perception, to the nondual, unitive field,  can be overwhelming and confusing after the epic voyage culminates.  Finding buoyancy and balance are key to our spiritual attunement and this takes some powerful internal house cleaning.  It's like endlessly polishing the mirror of one's soul.  Aho.  🙏✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️

Thanks for that. I believe I have a sense of that. For me, thus far, it's been balancing the felt sense that we are all of the divine, or of the same substance, and yet I am also "me." The experience both raises questions and offers, not necessarily "knowledge" so much as an experience. For me it a very "unitive" experience, both feeling one with creation but also getting a sense that we are all connected and part of everything (which is obvious in some regards, but certainly felt profound in the moment). I am me and yet a part of me, and "me" did not exist.

I suppose my takeaway from that at present is what do I take from that, and how can/do I keep using that experience to "polish the mirror of my soul?" Not that there is an easy ready-made answer for that, but it's something to consider. I also feel like the immediate post-integration was great, but it is an experience that I am still mulling over and think about quite regularly
#33
I had my first toad experience in February. My experience was awe inspiring and very positive, and felt like becoming one with everything, losing connection with my body and identity. There was some slight instinctive resistance, but overall it was as smooth as what was a violent storm of an experience can be. I did three rounds, the first one was probably a moderate does. The second and third were larger doses and that's where I felt like I was one with God and the Universe and all creation and the Divine. Not a bad way to spend a Saturday afternoon, eh? The third felt unnecessary, but I wanted that to use for moving forward.

I did not experience God as an entity so much as, well, everything. And my guide described it as we are all God experiencing through ourselves. For me it felt like we are from the universe, but along those lines. It also felt like what I would describe as a "born again" washing away of everything. There was a rocketing away from our consensually shared reality, a dissolution of self, then an experience of what felt like clarity before my nervous system reconnected with my body. It really felt a LOT like what Christians describe as being born again, only in a highly visceral and experiential way.

My guide said for most people the effects tend to last for a year and then after a year a second round is useful as a reminder of what was learned/experienced. I also suspect that revisiting that experience after a year can help me reflect on the changes made, what old patterns I may have fallen into, and perhaps having the wisdom of the first experience and some time I may find something else comes from it. At worst, it will be a powerful experience and a reminder of...well, whatever the hell you want to call it.

As for my question, I am curious what those of you who do 5-MeO-DMT with any regularity, or who have simply done additional sessions after your first experience, have found you got out of it.

In a sense, it feels like I climbed the mountain, met or communed with God/Existence/whatever, and had the clear thought that nothing would ever be the same. There is both a sense of "what now?" as well as a sense of "What more am I really looking for from this?" There does not seem to be a need which I find is a great space to be in. Those questions are not meant to be negative at all, but rather open-ended questions to which I likely do not have a real concrete answer to. However, I am also open to having it be something I may learn from. Another psychonaut friend of mine does psychedelics twice a year as a sacrament and that also holds some resonance. I do not want do it just to do it, however I also like the idea of some sacred purpose. If I never do it again, I feel very much at peace with that. If repeat experiences somehow offer something of value, I am also very open to that as well.

I would love to hear any thoughts or experiences. Thank you in advance.
#34
Introductions/Newbies / Re: New Traveler - Question on...
Last post by Rising Spirit - July 17, 2025, 10:12:53 AM
Welcome aboard, friend.  I've come to the understanding that it's not the number of journeys one embarks upon that is most important, with the sacred 5 medicine, it's the integration and actualization of the profound insights and epiphanies that matters the most.  Moving from our dualistic state of perception, to the nondual, unitive field,  can be overwhelming and confusing after the epic voyage culminates.   Finding buoyancy and balance are key to our spiritual attunement and this takes some powerful internal house cleaning.  It's like endlessly polishing the mirror of one's soul.   Aho.  🙏✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️
#35
Introductions/Newbies / New Traveler - Question on Sub...
Last post by Lopsided Nobody - July 16, 2025, 03:01:18 PM
Hello Everybody,

I'm a fairly recent first-time traveler, so to speak. Looking forward to learning more. My one question is, after the initial journey and breakthrough, what more do you learn or in what ways have you grown from subsequent sessions.
#36
Introductions/Newbies / Happy to be here brothers and ...
Last post by lovelight9997 - June 21, 2025, 03:43:55 PM
I know it is time. We can do this and I pledge to give my service in advancing the human family.
Hope to learn more and make connections. <3
#37
Preparation and Integration / Facilitator/sitter request
Last post by Nathan4518 - June 18, 2025, 04:19:53 PM
Is there anyone near jacksonville, fl that can sit or facilitate a 5 session with me? I am not necessarily location restricted. _/|\_
#38
General Discussion / Indimidation/seeking guidance
Last post by Nathan4518 - May 31, 2025, 11:05:10 PM
Hi all, i guess i will start with saying, at about five years ago, i was extremely eager to try five. I went to try it, but i don't remember the experience. I am still a huge believer and advocate, but have since been taking the warnings to heart, to the point where i am so freaked out to try it again. One minute, like the last couple weeks, i have been gearing up to search again for a sitter. Now, after browsing the prep section, i am realizing the seriousness. 

I guess when my enthusiasm is a-go for sure, can anyone direct me to someone, preferably near jacksonville, to help me get started?
#39
There are many valid support groups that specialize with integration and balancing the tremendous revelations associated with journeys with 5-MeO-DMT. Granted, it's overwhelming sometimes.  It's silly to suggest just embracing the vast insubstanciality and undifferentiated emptiness of ground zero, by simply saying, "just let yourself go, man."  But on many levels...  it's how it is.  True dat.  Integration truly begins by accepting a particular neutrality and an attitude of grateful surrender.  Walk in peace, friend.  🙏✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️ 
#40
I feel that it's safe to say that most travelers in ceremony with 5-MeO also reaches the point wherein everything percievable dissolves into the formless, empty vacuum of the Void.  On my inaugural voyage, I was confronted with the no-thingness of the core of being.  Of course, I had prepared for decades with deep meditation training but...  nothing really prepares one for self death and the finality of oblivion.  That said, I found that within the terrifying, sheer indivisibilty of it all, much illumination was forthcoming during the phase of recoalecense, which filled my emerging subjectivity with a profound sense of rebirthing and reawakened desire to serve the whole universal web of Source consciousness.  And an immensely great sense of gratitude bloomed and expanded exponentially.  This has always made integration a most cathartic and deeply healing experience.  🙏✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️