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Offline jeffzto

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« on: August 17, 2018, 08:50:37 PM »
Hi all, I'm considering trying 5-meo-dmt.  I've just started reading about it in more depth, and have found someone who may guide me through the experience.


I have some concerns, mainly around my lack of support in my real-ish life.  I don't have a circle of friends, or any friends really.  This is my fault, I have some very negative energy and push people away.  I'm not very nice.  I don't like that about myself.  My therapist said it was learned from my parents -- which is possible, as I have felt this way as far back as I can remember.  Anyway, I put on the mask to slink my way through my life, and have done so for 40+ years, but I am so tired of it.  Another big concern is that DMT will strip away everything and make me come face-to-face with myself, and I don't think I'll like what I see.


Also I live a lot in my mind.  It's not always terrible, I occasionally get a lot of peace and satisfaction from listening to music, playing instruments, reading, or just thinking.  Will DMT ... disrupt that?  I'm no great intellect -- a great pseudointellect maybe -- but I wonder if that will be impaired somehow.


So, very big concerns here.


But I'm still curious, and I can't continue in my current approach to life and myself, which is less of an approach than a fierce disengagement.


Regards to all from Toronto!