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Offline Suitable_Intention

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Hello!
« on: March 15, 2019, 09:49:46 PM »
Hi,


I've never tried toad before. I've used aya and psilocybin for personal work (with varying degrees of success, mostly low degrees), however I am committed to the path. I will have the opportunity in May if I can scrape the funds together in time, and I'm scared shitless but for some reason it feels right; I've been needing to find some sort of "not-going-backness" in my life and sort of feel stuck and confused in a lot of ways about what's most important and about how to simplify my life and my internal work. They say the toad comes to you, and it is most definitely coming to me.


Some people tell me that "it doesn't have to be hard", but I suspect to a certain extent it does and I know deep down I need a more solid reason to keep doing the hard work. Just loads of doubt and confusion and stagnation really.


I've read the big three works by Martin W. Ball and also Tryptamine Palace by Oroc. Doesn't make me any more intrepid though.


A lot of days I'm fine. Today I'm a bit irritable because I've been meditating more lately and I guess its bringing stuff to the surface and garbling the message I'm trying to convey.


Anyways, that'll do for the moment.


Toadles!
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Re: Hello!
« Reply #1 on: April 16, 2019, 05:14:05 PM »
Welcome! Hopefully this forum can be a good source of support as you find your way on your path. Do you have any forms of therapeutic support set up as part of your process?